Currently I don’t feel happy nor do I feel sad I’m just “meh” whatever that actually is. A lot has been going on one of which has recently gotten better so thats less stress but other things especially loosing my job is taking it tole on me. Im ok while distracted or busy but it comes to this time of night and it’s just “meh” to be honest I feel just fed up in general. I just want to get away a bit on my own to clear my head. Just me and my thoughts but I know if I mentioned going somewhere such as Blackpool or Manchester which is about an hour or 2 away via train, people would suggest they come with or want to know who I was with. I just want to be alone me and my own thoughts in a different environment other than my bedroom.