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Libby
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I hate college. Not because of the work and stuff at the moment, but im already sick of not having anyone to hang out with. Everywhere I walk, I keep feeling paranoid that people are laughing at me for being alone and thinking- look it's the loner again. I just want to go somewhere and cry but everywhere I go ( including the toilets) there's people. It's really annoying that this is happpening and I keep thinking that if I die no one will care. I also keep thinking that I may as well be dead as I will always be alone.
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Keep going, get through college any way you can and it will be worth it. We're here if you wanna talk some more about what you're going through. Sending hugs
- Lucy
Sending hugs back ❤xxx
i can understand how things like this can really make you feel low. I used to be alone at college sometimes and can understand it feeling awful. And i remember seeing other people alone at college - i never thought "what a loner" i either thought you like sometime by themselves, theyre indepenant or thought that their friends are else where.
So maybe people would be able to relate to how youre feeling right now and youre not alone in that sense
What you said about other people not thinking what a loner I get because I feel the same about other people. Thanks because it's nice to know that you understand and it's helped me to feel less alone.❤ It still kinda makes me unhappy and i kinda feel tempted to drop out because this situation is really annoying me now.
i feel that way at college too
I'm really sorry you're going through this. I finished my two years of college this June, and I pretty much went through the same thing with being alone most of the time. I understand how you feel completely. I can assure you that no one is laughing at you, most people are either sympathetic or they are too busy worrying about themselves. Please do not let your brain trick you into thinking that no one would care if you died, or that you should die. There are people who love you, and everyone here in this thread appreciates you! You are a wonderful, valuable human being and you absolutely deserve to live a good life💙💜
I make mistakes and I am humbled every step of the way
I want to be a better person, I wanna know the master plan
Cast your stones, cast your judgement, you don't make me who I am.
Thanks for the advice- it's reminded me that I shouldn't feel insecure when alone and now I need to remember that. Its nice to know that im not alone as you understand. I hope that everything is going ok for you at the moment and feel free to talk to me xxx❤
I can hear that you have been going through a tough time at the moment with college and I can sense that you are feeling quite lonely being there. It's understandably going to be difficult if you haven't got anyone to spend time with so sending you massive hugs. Is there any clubs or groups that you could take part in where you will be able to meet new people?
You mentioned that you feel that if you was to die, nobody would care. I can guarantee that everyone here at the mix would care and you seem like a really lovely person and from what I have seen you have a lot of strength!
Just wanted to link some recourses below that may be of use if you are struggling to cope.
- Crisis Messenger are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text 'THEMIX' to 85258 if you are feeling in crisis.
-Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
-Papyrus - offer non-judgemental support, advice and information to young people. You can call them at 0800 068 4141. They are open Mon-Fri 10am-10pm and 2-10pm on weekends.
-Mind - have a list of crisis houses and sanctuaries that offer short-term support that you might like to try. You might also like to search for your local Mind to see what support is available in your area.
Have you been able to talk to any of the staff at college, or anyone else who you trust about these feelings of loneliness? Sometimes it can be helpful as especially the college staff, they may be able to direct you to some support.
You have done really well to reach out here!
Jade x
"I do what i do because it's right... and above all its KIND" - the 12th Doctor 💕
The joy is worth the pain.
Sorry for replying late. As far as I know, there arn't really many clubs and joining one makes me feel worried because I feel like everyone will already have their own friendship groups and they will be hard to join. I haven't contacted the numbers that you gave me before, so thank you for suggesting them to me ❤ and I'll feel like they'll also be useful as I can talk to people I don't know like on here. At the moment, im seeing a counsellor so I might talk to them about how im feeling at my next appointment.
Thanks for your kind words about having strengh and thanks again for sending me the resources xxx
I feel kinda nervous about asking a teacher about hanging in a classroom, but I'll try that because some teachers didn't have a problem with that in secondary school. Thanks for the advice because it will give me more time to revise and feel free to talk to me whenever xxx
I just wanted to check in and see how things have been since you last posted and ask how college has been going?
We are here for you and you have done really well to share with us
Jade
Sorry for replying late. Things are better at college now because I meet up with one of my friends more often, so im not always on my own. Some days are more stressful, but I would say that things are becoming better overall.
Thanks for your support and im here for you as well xxx
There's absolutely no need to apologise, It's really positive that you are able to meet up with your friends more and I'm glad that you are not on your own as often.
I'm so happy to hear that things have improved for you overall and you are always welcome to reach out on the boards if and when you need!
Jade