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Losing my mind
Jellyelephant
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i feel like I’m going insane. Between my Nana’s health worries and my smear test and college work I am sooooooo stressed and anxious. My skin picking has got very bad, I’ve been drinking more, using codeine to calm myself and my care co said I am hallucinating which is just fabbbbbb. I keep feeling bugs crawling over me and seeing people randomly when they’re not there and seeing my name appear in places where it’s not there. My ptsd is kicking my arse since the smear, having flashbacks and feeling disgusting and self harm. All my college work is due tomorrow and Thursday and I haven’t done it yet so gonna have to do an all nighter.
Hdjdjfiak just want want to scream and smash everything up
Hdjdjfiak just want want to scream and smash everything up
The sun will rise and we will try again
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Sorry to hear how you're feeling,it's positive to see you reaching out for support here though, we care about you
Could you talk to your tutor about maybe getting an extension on your college work, just for some extra time, or some support?
Have you spoken to anybody else about how you're feeling?
You say about taking codeine to calm yourself, how would you feel about trying something else to try and help calm yourself? Do you have any interests?
We are here for you Jelly
How are you feeling today?
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things are going from bad to worse. On top of everything else yesterday the DWP told me they are reassessing my benefits and I am scared that if they take them I can’t pay to see my therapist anymore. I saw my GP this morning and she said that my blood test results show my liver level had increased a lot and it was bad. She said they will redo the test in 6 weeks and it needs to come down a lot by then. So I have to reduce my drinking by a LOT. I am so stressed and scared and overwhelmed and I don’t know if I can do all this.
Am struggling majorly with the alcohol. I spoke to my old alcohol worker on the phone today though and he has made me an appointment to see him in 2 weeks as he is off next week and he said we can talk about how I’m doing and a plan to work through this and stuff. He said I can get back into their service without needing my care co to do another referral which is good.
I have been trying to tackle my debts with the help of my keyworker though. She showed me how to call the companies and tell them about my mental illness etc and see if they will help me and not charge for while im getting help with debts. So I rang one myself and explained what was going on and they have put my case under a “specialist support team” which apparently they will help me now and I don’t have to deal with the company any more. So I assume that’s good.
Currently having a melt down tho COs my rapist added me on Facebook
I can’t sense that you are feeling really overwhelmed right now 💗 I’m glad that you have spoke about your alcohol problems, hopefully that support will help you and will maybe give you some relief. Sometimes tackling one problem can help with everything else I find, I believe in you 100000% Jelly.
Its understandable that you aren’t feeling too good as your abusers added you on Facebook, that must be really difficult for you 😔 so I'm sending so much love and support your way right now xx
I’m always here and I hope things begin to improve and settle down soon 💗