I found out what is wrong with my friend. I said to her a week or so ago that I still wanted to end my life and she thought that me being in hospital and having "support" (I have hardly any support) I wouldnt feel like this anymore. That is why she has been distant with me. What does she want me to say or do about that! Any suggestions? I'm afraid I'm going to be suicidal until the day I die. I've been suicidal since I was 17ish, I'm 24 now. I think that is long enough for someone to be suicidal for. It's not fair!