Hi my name's Loren but I go by Elle Zee. I suffer from mild depression and social anxiety disorder as well as general anxiety. I signed up to this because initially I called a runaway helpline and they referred me to this website. I'm struggling a lot at the moment as my mother loathes my best friend, who has helped through everything I've gone through, and my mother has forced me to choose between living under her roof or staying friends with my best friend. However I've also been forced to distance myself from my best friend as I've fallen in love with him and as much as he makes me happy, laugh and feel whole, he has also caused me so much pain and grief and a lot of my emotional anxiety. Although I'm surrounded by friends who love me and caring adults at school, I still feel so alone as none of them seem to understand. This year hasn't been the best to me and I'm hoping from here there might be some who understand.