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Feeling low and confused... Advice please 🤦‍♀️
lydmayo
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I’m worried and confused. I’ve never had to look for help before really. I’ve been in control of my life for so long and the past 9 months has been a struggle. I’d been really unhappy so made decisions to try and be better so I stopped feeling suicidal but those decisions were wrong and I messed up.
I then have felt great for a few weeks but was a-bit over the top and don’t really remember what I did because it ended in the biggest low of my life, I was horrible to someone and then I turned to suicide I drove round in my car for 2 hours crying and thinking about the best way to do it. I didn’t thank god, I still feel rubbish and I told my mum and my friend about what’s happened. I feel weird and dazed and my anxiety’s got bad. I’ve never experienced anything as bad as this before and I wondered if anyone knew what the best thing to do is so this doesn’t keep on happening? Or if anyone else has experienced this?
I then have felt great for a few weeks but was a-bit over the top and don’t really remember what I did because it ended in the biggest low of my life, I was horrible to someone and then I turned to suicide I drove round in my car for 2 hours crying and thinking about the best way to do it. I didn’t thank god, I still feel rubbish and I told my mum and my friend about what’s happened. I feel weird and dazed and my anxiety’s got bad. I’ve never experienced anything as bad as this before and I wondered if anyone knew what the best thing to do is so this doesn’t keep on happening? Or if anyone else has experienced this?
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Welcome to the forum, sending hugs and hope you feel better soon,
I know how your feeling, I've been sucidal over the pass few weeks myself, my boyfriend recommended me (last night I was quite down and sad) to listern to this podcasts called "welcome to night Vale" which I found very humorse (and I'm not an funny guy) it is quite mature contents as their do use an lot of rude words, give it an try? Your might like it.Â
If you feel down, go and make yourself an hot drink (for me it an hot chocolate) and some biscuits/chocolate and wrap yourself up in the coveres and watch something funny (for me it an youtuber called cray)
Hope you feel better today and sending hugs
Stay strongÂ
Thank you for being so supportive. It means a lotÂ
I think I should go to the doctors @kathleen0172 and I've thought it for sometime now. Im struggling to take that first step because I feel they will judge me. I did call them but they don't have an appointment available unless its an emergency, I spoke to a lady there and she asked me to call tomorrow morning. It is a lot of pressure explaining how you feel in person to someone and I guess thats why I'm putting it off a bit.
My mums suffered with depression all of her life and understands mental health having experienced it first hand herself, I think I didn't want to let her down and thats why I kept it to me self for a while, I didn't tell her everything but I told my friend everything and they just want me to find a way to feel better, my friend knew there was something wrong for a long time but not to this extent.
I'll take a look at 'welcome to night vale' and see what I think @davcr0ck
Thank you both again talking about it does make a difference xxx