Hi, my name is judgeged, my addiction trouble

Hi guys I’ve just gone through four weeks of withdrawal from a three year stint overdosing. My 4 week start to recover from these horrible pills has Ben everything from diarrhoea all day everyday for two weeks, emotional breakdowns every morning ( usually morning was worse) I would burst into tears everyday ( I still get really upset very easily). I started on the pain meds because I had spinal issues, I was finished from work ( retired due to ill health) and spent two solid years at home virtually never leaving the house, I gained a ton of weight and lost my physical fitness ( I used to ride my mountain bike regularly) I had numerous hobbies ( non of which I follow anymore). It’s been four weeks now the stomach issues are going but I’m left with a very flatulent stomach regardless of what I try to eat. I went through spinal surgery 5 months ago and I still get a lot of pain, but now I have gone cold turkey on my pain meds so my pain is completely out of control. I still suffer from my back and I’m under investigation to see if I need my spine operating again as the op wasn’t 100%. I’m still unemployed and in ESA benefit, but I have lost all my self respect and pride 

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