I'm a teenager still in secondary school and currently going through some problems with my friendship. Me and my mate had an argument back in December and it got quite serious. It was over text. I was quite hurt, but she was too, which I didn't even take into consideration until she told me. That made me realise that I hurt people and don't even notice. To put it simply, I'm toxic in friendships.I always expect more than what I get. I think that's why I was even more hurt when we fought again. After the fight in December, I felt that she was a bit awkward even though we made up, over text. A month ago, we fought again. This time it was even worse. I tried so hard to make things right with her but I felt that she didn't respond to my attempts half as much. It's as if she couldn't be bothered with me. Her friends got dragged in it too and it almost got physical with them. After nt taking for a whole month, and realizing that I really needed our friendship I tried to make things okay. She had also suffered a loss in the family, so I think she didn't have the energy to argue anymore, so she agreed that we should be cool. However, we don't talk anywhere near as much as we used to and t hurts. She's always been ne of my closes friends but I think she's given up on trying to get back the bond we shared before. It hurts that things can't go back to how they were. I really relied n our friendship to put a smile on my face but now I don't even have that. I felt like even when we were close I needed her more than she needed me. I always will, I guess. Its pathetic but it is how it is.