Anxiety is driving my partner away.
My partner and I have been dating for almost a year in long distance. We met online and it was spark for both of us from the start, we soon told each other we both had troubles with insecurities and anxieties, so for the first few months things went very smoothly, we reassured each other constantly, we always were extremely attentionate and always wanting to show our feelings, after about 8 months things changed quite a bit, he slowly begins to no longer suffer those anxieties and says it is because he doesn't need to be worried, except that is still not my case. So my anxiety crisis are met in a very different way from the start, to a point now if I ask him if he still wants to spend his life with me, he will just tell me why am I being ridiculous asking those questions, the problem is the more I feel I annoy him with those questions the more guilty I feel and the harder it is for me to feel better. Things have come to a point where I feel now he is just sick of me and doesn't really love me like he once did. But I cannot ask him that, he will say it's ridiculous to ask and get mad, I find it very hard to control my anxieties and with less affection and no more reassurance I don't know anymore how to make myself better to make him happy again. When I have a bad moment and he gets mad, I apologise, nearly beg, and he will just say "alright, until the next time". I dont want to lose him we have such a strong connection in everything else, the only down point is my mental health and I want to fix it so much but I don't know if I've already lost the battle with him. We meet generally once a month and we actually talk all day long via messaging, see each other through Skype roughly once to twice a week and we still have so much fun together when bad things don't happen, it just feels I can trigger anger so easily in him with my anxieties and I have made a lot of improvements which he says he has noticed, but I feel now he is in this relationship only expecting more anxieties as soon as one is dealt with, I know he has such a patience to be dealing with this for so long and I don't know what to do to make up for this or to just stop ruining this otherwise perfect relationship over nothing but what I make up in my own head.:banghead: