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Help - struggling with bipolar and fibromyalgia [PTW]
i have recently been diagnosed with bipolar and fybromyalgia a few years ago. I live at home with my son who has fragile x and my husband who is disabled due to spinal issues. I am in debt due to the bipolar spend spend spend. i am in the process of loosing my job due to being off for 8 months and not being fit to go back. I feel that my life has been on a downward spiral all my life due to suffering childhood traumas, bring up my son, finding a man i really love only for him to take ill 6 months into the relationship. i feel that everyone depends on me and i dont know how to cope with myself never mind anyone else.. i have previously taken an overdose and know that after seeing the hurt and pain this caused my mum, and the thought of the pain it would cause my sons i know that i wont do this again. yesterday i was so depressed after doing a mindfulness session as i felt i was drowing in the lake that we had to visualise. on the way home i felt so empty that i started to scratch at my arms so that i could feel something. i did this again this morning on my legs and feel the urge to cut myself deeper. i hate myself, who i am, the way i look. i am scared and though i am getting support nothing seems to be working.