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Feeling pressured into a suicide pact (may be triggering)
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Being pressured to make a pact with another suicidal girl within the hospital. On one hand, I am liking the idea of a secure foolproof plan, can I take another person down with me? So confused.
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Whose pressuring you to do that, Ellie? *hug*
Another really ill girl. The problem is, a large part of me really wants to die, but a small part doesn't. And now it feels like I don't have a choice either way. Thank you for the hug x
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I think you should speak to a nurse hun, you need to listen to that little bit of you that doesn't want to die and keep engaging with help. Don't let someone pressure you into a joint suicide. *hugs*
As B-A says, we'd urge you to talk to your nurse about what's happening Ellie, it's really worrying to hear about and it sounds like both of you need a lot of support at the moment.
It may feel a comfort to have someone else that can empathise with how you feel but your feelings are your own and so are hers. You shouldn't feel pressured into anything.
That part of you that wants to keep going - can you tell us a bit more about that maybe?
Big hug *hug*
I agree with Broken-Angel. You've got the help there and you should talk to them about how you're feeling. That little part of you that doesn't want to die, try focusing on that, and by doing that then hopefully that little part becomes a big part of you.
Big hug *hug*
Sorry for the long ramble
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This isn't a ramble at all Ellie, it's really brave of you to keep coming back to talk about this and we're glad you are.
It's interesting that you're worried about getting into trouble, as this suggests you still care about life - how people view you and respond to you, is this true?
It sounds like you have quite a lot of potential to influence this girl and vice-versa, so perhaps just as you've been able to engage her in conversation about suicide, you also have the power to engage her in conversations about your potential for life together outside of hospital? If just one of you shares the thought of carrying on and having each other to do that - then maybe the other will feel relief that not only is there life beyond things right now, but also the opportunity to keep going with a friend.
If you tell the nurse that you're terrified then it's likely to be a weight off your shoulders that you don't have the burden of responsibility any more, but do have a chance to truly recover.
Nothing you say here sounds stupid, it just sounds like you're looking for some reassurance. Keep talking to us. *hug*
Nevertheless, what I said still stands - nothing you said sounds stupid and it's important to keep talking.
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I am sorry I havent been there for you recently. I still care though. And I want you to know that I am here for you.
Love you lots. :-) I am sorry to hear how youve been feeling. I am always here for you if you ever want a chat.
We havent given up on you. You are gonna get through this.
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This.
I'm so sorry your friend took things to the next stage, it must be really hard to see her sedated.
It sounds like the family influence you've had over the years hasnt always had a positive impact on you - is this true? Are you able to recognise anyone who you feel has been there or times you've felt supported?
Are you able to talk with any of the nurses about the impact the relationship with your friend is having?