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what can i do....
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I've been suffering from alot of depression over the past few years.. But
recently it, amongst other things has forced the person I love out of my life..
It's destroying me.. She texts me saying she misses me she loves my she wants to
see me but she can't... Then the next day she will completely ignore me.. Then
the next shell call and act like everything's normal... One day shed say be
strong and show me this is real that you love me .. And that she won't even
consider getting back together UNTILL were both in better places.. But then
she's saying I have to show her that I believe she's serious about this.. And
that I don't want her just because I can't have her.. I'm madly in love with her
and I don't want to lose her from my life .. But she is messing with my head.. I
just don't kno how she really feels.. One day I feel like she wants me to try
and then like she doesn't care... She says she loves me and misses me .. But
then doesn't want to talk to me.. I've got such mixed messages and its driving
me insane and I can't take it anymore.. I'm scared of even contacting her cos
I'm pushing her away.. And when I do I just get indifference.. But when she
wants to talk she expects everything from me.. I'm just hanging on to her every
word waiting for some sign.. She brings me up and acts like she really wants to
be part of my life again.. But then shoots me down again.. It's killing me.. She
said the other day that she didnt want to feel like she wasn't single at the
moment and that if we were both to see other people and then still want to be
with each other then that would clarify it more for her... And that to get back
together she wants it to be new and fresh.. And we have to tract each other
naturally.. But how can I do that if she feels like us not seeing/contacting
each other is the way to go about it.. I'm so confused and it kills me every
second of the day.. I can't concerntrate on anything and i keep having panic
attacks... I want to just call her and tell her I miss her and I love her... She
told me that I never made that obvious enough and she thought she loved me more
than I did.. But now I feel I can't even show her that's not true.. Cos she
won't believe me.. Or cos I'm only doing to get her back... I'm so lost and
alone and I don't have anyone to talk to .. I don't kno what to do.. What's
best.. I want her bak in my life and I just don't kno what to do... How I do
show her this is real?? How can I make her belive me? How can I prove my love
for her and win back her heart... It's making me sic.. I can't eat or sleep.. I
can't work.. I'm so scared of losing her for good.. So scared someone will have
the chance before I do.. So scared I won't be able to hold her again... And that
she is forcing herself away from me...
She said everything in her body wants to come over and for it to be alright but
it can't be that quick. .. Implying she does want to make it work.. But then
implies the complete opposite... I don't kno what to do... I just can't lose her
my life is nothing without her.. She is my soul mate and I want to be with her
forever...
recently it, amongst other things has forced the person I love out of my life..
It's destroying me.. She texts me saying she misses me she loves my she wants to
see me but she can't... Then the next day she will completely ignore me.. Then
the next shell call and act like everything's normal... One day shed say be
strong and show me this is real that you love me .. And that she won't even
consider getting back together UNTILL were both in better places.. But then
she's saying I have to show her that I believe she's serious about this.. And
that I don't want her just because I can't have her.. I'm madly in love with her
and I don't want to lose her from my life .. But she is messing with my head.. I
just don't kno how she really feels.. One day I feel like she wants me to try
and then like she doesn't care... She says she loves me and misses me .. But
then doesn't want to talk to me.. I've got such mixed messages and its driving
me insane and I can't take it anymore.. I'm scared of even contacting her cos
I'm pushing her away.. And when I do I just get indifference.. But when she
wants to talk she expects everything from me.. I'm just hanging on to her every
word waiting for some sign.. She brings me up and acts like she really wants to
be part of my life again.. But then shoots me down again.. It's killing me.. She
said the other day that she didnt want to feel like she wasn't single at the
moment and that if we were both to see other people and then still want to be
with each other then that would clarify it more for her... And that to get back
together she wants it to be new and fresh.. And we have to tract each other
naturally.. But how can I do that if she feels like us not seeing/contacting
each other is the way to go about it.. I'm so confused and it kills me every
second of the day.. I can't concerntrate on anything and i keep having panic
attacks... I want to just call her and tell her I miss her and I love her... She
told me that I never made that obvious enough and she thought she loved me more
than I did.. But now I feel I can't even show her that's not true.. Cos she
won't believe me.. Or cos I'm only doing to get her back... I'm so lost and
alone and I don't have anyone to talk to .. I don't kno what to do.. What's
best.. I want her bak in my life and I just don't kno what to do... How I do
show her this is real?? How can I make her belive me? How can I prove my love
for her and win back her heart... It's making me sic.. I can't eat or sleep.. I
can't work.. I'm so scared of losing her for good.. So scared someone will have
the chance before I do.. So scared I won't be able to hold her again... And that
she is forcing herself away from me...
She said everything in her body wants to come over and for it to be alright but
it can't be that quick. .. Implying she does want to make it work.. But then
implies the complete opposite... I don't kno what to do... I just can't lose her
my life is nothing without her.. She is my soul mate and I want to be with her
forever...
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Comments
Thats actually fucked up and mentally abusive
She isnt your soul mate
If you really believe that shes a good person underneath, then back off and ask her to get help, while you get help too, and also accept that even if you love her and vice versa, then this might not be a good time for you both, and to take a break while you both sort your heads out, with a view to getting better and being together later