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Feeling down and unheard...
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I'm begrudgingly writting this...I don't want to admit to feeling down, because I think it makes me pretty undesirable to anyone and everyone...not that I think that of other people.
Its probably to be expected, not only is it getting to that time of year (my birthday, xmas, etc), but being made homeless and it looking less and less likely that I'll have anywhere to live by xmas, is going to make me feel pretty crap. But I can't get any help from the NHS until I have somewhere stable to live. Vicious circle!
I'm not too sure what to do about it, Samaritians don't really get it right now. I've got nothing to look forward to, I feel like I'm ignored by most people, and those who do give me some attention it feels just pity me. I'm just starting to feel full of misery and quite blank. Most of my friends just aren't able to give me any support, so I'm doing it all on my own. I feel like i'm just battling through each day to no clear end.
Any ideas?
Its probably to be expected, not only is it getting to that time of year (my birthday, xmas, etc), but being made homeless and it looking less and less likely that I'll have anywhere to live by xmas, is going to make me feel pretty crap. But I can't get any help from the NHS until I have somewhere stable to live. Vicious circle!
I'm not too sure what to do about it, Samaritians don't really get it right now. I've got nothing to look forward to, I feel like I'm ignored by most people, and those who do give me some attention it feels just pity me. I'm just starting to feel full of misery and quite blank. Most of my friends just aren't able to give me any support, so I'm doing it all on my own. I feel like i'm just battling through each day to no clear end.
Any ideas?
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It was obviously hard to write down how you were feeling and its clear you don't want to be pitied in anyway.
Birthdays and Xmas's can rake up loads of old memories for most people, bad and good. Your not alone there. With everything else your having to deal with at the minute it must be hard to get excited about either.
I dont know too much about your housing situation, but I can see from your previous posts that you have been in touch with Shelter. Have you given them a full update on your situation and asked for advice on where to go from here?
You say you can't get help from the NHS without a permanent address? Are you still registered with a doctor. Is there any chance you could go and speak to them?
Let us know how you get on?
Phil
Sorry to hear that you aren't doing too well. It is understandable given what you have got going on at the moment.
I know what you mean about not getting much help when your address is uncertain, I've been there myself and the council tried to put me in a hostel for people with mental health problems miles away from the treatment catchment area for the day hospital that I had already been referred to. Crazy. I wish they didn't have such strict catchment area rules, it would make life a whole lot easier for many people.
You know you can pm me anytime. I hope things look up soon for you.
xx
The drs are well aware of how I'm feeling and my situation. I have a CPN who I see every 2 weeks ish, but she can't refer me on to anything until i have somewhere stable to live. I've been given tablets for my anxiety which take the edge off things, but don't stop me getting panicy. I've been told that I'm SSRI resistant, and I'm really not keen on using drugs to treat my depression because it's reactive to life events rather than just out of the blue.
I'm just wondering if there's any I can do whilst all of this is going on, if I can't get help from anyone else.
It does sound like your stuck behind a rock and a hard place.
It seems like one of those situations where (especially when it comes to the housing) your gonna have to just sit it out and listen to the advice your receiving from Shelter and the council. They're the experts in these matters.
With regards to the anxiety. It sounds like you have a lot of insight into that. All of these things may seem obvious to you, but TheSite has some good self-help links on coping with anxiety. If you've not checked them out before it might be worthwhile taking a look at the link below.
http://www.thesite.org/healthandwellbeing/mentalhealth/anxietyandstress/anxietygettinghelp
Hope that helps. Sometimes just venting on here is enough to relieve a bit of the stress. *hug*
Phil
I'm not feeling good cos of antibiotics (now on the second lot because the first didn't do anything) for infected lymph nodes, so I'm just curling up on the sofa and keeping myself comfy.
We might have had a turn up for the books on the housing front, but I don't want to get my hopes up until it actually materialises.
a bit of comfort eating is needed by us all at times *hug*
Hope you have good news with the housing situation, let us know how you get on, we're all thinking of you.
dp
Most of all, I just some people to hang out with, have fun with and stuff. It doesn't seem a big ask in writing but in real world terms it seems huge.
The bunglow didn't work out, we're not going to be offered anything this week because we're way down the list, looking at other options but heck its not looking bright.
I talked to my support worker about upping my medication, and she said that its not going to make the situation better. I have no idea what I can do anymore, I just know I'm very close to running out of steam. everything physically hurts and I feel like i've not got much to look forward to right now, not because of any melodramatic-ness, just because, right now I don't have much in my life asides this horrible situation which feels like its swollowing me whole.