anxious nervous please help

well i just cant believe it. im 22 and suffering from anxiety and nervousness and its ruining my life:banghead: all i want is to enjoy my life and go out and do things without worrying (worrying about what i just dont know) and its doing my head in. it probably started just after christmas 2010 maybe february and i went to see someone about it like a counceller or something like that and i felt fine for about one week and then i went on down hill AGAIN!!!!:crying: :no: :mad: :banghead: and so anyway ... i got put on propranolol and i felt better and better until just recently i started to get very anxious and nervous again. so i went back to the doctors and i have started to take the tablets again but only when i need them. i have to go see a cognitive behavioural therapist. i really dont want this to be a part of my life i really dont. it leaves me feel frustrated and confused and absolutely tired to the point i just need to (at work) just run to the toilets and cry and cry but that makes me feel even worse and more tired so i get sent home and AAARRRGGGHHH is there anyone else like me? i feel like the only one really and i think that if i could talk and get in contact with people suffering from the same thing it could help me and u!!!!! when i go out i feel on edge and worried and i also think a little paranoid. i do go out and make myself go out in fear that if i dont i will end up a recluse and then thats it .... what life is that for anyone???????? i just feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. how do you cope with this sort of thing? i call it a thing because i know that it is not a actual illness or im mental, i know im doing it all myself so i just wish that i could think differently and sto haing negative thoughts. but how. i hope i can find help from the behavioural therapists. im even uptight about going there because i dont know what to expect and ive never been there before and i scared that i will start to panic because of this and not be able to breath and that i will faint when in these cases i know very few people do faint but just the thought of it makes me very scared. i know what is wrong with myself and i know im not a freak lol and i can communicate with people and things like that but soon as i start thinking OMG WHAT HAPPENS IF I CANT??? and then off i go and i feel like i am looking down on myself and i go quiet and i feel like my eyes are very wide as if i look startled and i feel jittery and on edge and i know it will sound weird but i feel like my head is being pulled in one direction all the frigging time.
anyway i think i have said everything i feel like lol.
please take time to read what i have wrote please .... i know its a long long essay lol
hope people right to me positively
thanks