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just hating life
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i am just going 2 have a good old moan here and u lot will probably get really bored so if u have other stuff to do i suggest u give up now!
but thanx alot 2 ne of u who read my post!
recently i have noticed i am turning into a really horrible/moody person i cant help it - i know that will probably sound really bad but i honestly cant.
take this morning 4 example - i got up and went downstairs 2 go and make me n my bf some brekkie, he came down after me and went 2 hug me but i just pushed him away.
i dunno wot it is but recently whenever he goes 2 kiss/hug/touch me i just push him away. i have been feeling really tearful aswell.
ok last nite me and my bloke were getting down 2 it and half way through i just told him 2 stop and i burst out crying he held me and asked me 2 talk about it but i just dunno wot 2 say. i start crying at everything, but it aint PMT cos im not due on 4 about 3 weeks.
i lash out at people 4 nothing and then when i upset them it upsets me even more. i hate myself in everyway, my looks/personality everything, i have no self confidence and i truly feel like i just wanna die, ive got my GCSEs this year and the thought of doing them is bad enough.
i hate life basically, and that pisses me off cos i used 2 love it, i was really confident and i was the one all my mates looked at as being really outgoing and loud.
now im not like that at all.
OMG i dunno wot is happening to me.
anyways im gonna shut up now.
luv 2 u all jo-lizzie xxx~~~xxx
but thanx alot 2 ne of u who read my post!
recently i have noticed i am turning into a really horrible/moody person i cant help it - i know that will probably sound really bad but i honestly cant.
take this morning 4 example - i got up and went downstairs 2 go and make me n my bf some brekkie, he came down after me and went 2 hug me but i just pushed him away.
i dunno wot it is but recently whenever he goes 2 kiss/hug/touch me i just push him away. i have been feeling really tearful aswell.
ok last nite me and my bloke were getting down 2 it and half way through i just told him 2 stop and i burst out crying he held me and asked me 2 talk about it but i just dunno wot 2 say. i start crying at everything, but it aint PMT cos im not due on 4 about 3 weeks.
i lash out at people 4 nothing and then when i upset them it upsets me even more. i hate myself in everyway, my looks/personality everything, i have no self confidence and i truly feel like i just wanna die, ive got my GCSEs this year and the thought of doing them is bad enough.
i hate life basically, and that pisses me off cos i used 2 love it, i was really confident and i was the one all my mates looked at as being really outgoing and loud.
now im not like that at all.
OMG i dunno wot is happening to me.
anyways im gonna shut up now.
luv 2 u all jo-lizzie xxx~~~xxx
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Luk
I think it's because I'm clumsy
I try not to talk to loud
I think it's because I'm crazy
I try not to act to proud
I was gonna say just wat Luka has, its definatly worth going to the docter. I hope things start to look up soon <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
ditto to what luka sed. u r on the pill rnt u? that messes with ur hormones all over the place, so maybe it is that? maybe stress about exams is getting you down or depression. i would definitely recommend you go to ur doctor, ask him if he thinks its to do with the pill, and if not, could it be depression. Also if you have changed ur diet recently that could also have an effect on ur emotions.
I know what you mean about how you look back and think why can't i still be like that? because i do the same. i used to be really giggly and funny and happy all the time. But now im not, and although i want to be, i think something inside of me has changed, but i am not sure what. if i knew, i would try to set it right!
Good luck, i hope you feel better soon <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
There's a girl in my mirror
I wonder who she is
Sometimes I think I know her
Sometimes I really wish I did
i am off 2 the doctors on the 19th at 9.30 so think about me wont ya!!! drifter i did actually think it might be cos of the pill, so when i have finished this pack (microgynon 30) 2 (mercilon) plus i have put on some weight!
but hopefully the doctor will help, i hate the thought that i might be "depressed" i just wanna be the way i used 2 be happy golucky, *sighs*
anyway please keep replying! luv jo-lizzie xxx
Whatever it is, good luck with the doc on Thursday. Don't chicken out, it's important that you tell him how you're feeling, especially about the crying.
Luka, where's that link to the Goldberg test?
see ya
j9
http://community.netdoktor.com/ccs/uk/depression/facts/ami/article.jsp?articleIdent=uk.depression.facts.ami.uk_depression_article_1792
sorry a bit excitable there....
((((((((jolizzie)))))))))
everyone else has said anything i was going to say... it sounds like it could be depression, or hormones or something. then again it could just be something you'll get out of soon, like a phase... i was the same sometime last year, with my bf anyway... i suspect it might have been due to my changing feelings for him, but i dunno.
hope it goes well at the doctors for you, dont hold anything back, tell him everything! i nkow it sounds obvious but i know id be there thinking of something on the tip of my tongue and not getting round to saying it and feeling embarrassed. but we're all thinking of you, let us know how it goes <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
Burn baby burn!
j9
I was the same as you, i would push my boyf away, then i'll want a hug, he could do no right and i felt worse. I needed him but he felt so helpless and i didn't know what i wanted.
I had college then, and a dad who hated my boyf and it felt that every where i went there were problems going with with me, and all because of a load of hormones.
I too was putting on weight. AT that time i was a size 12, which aint bad but my mate came in one day and found me crying on my bed coz i thought i was fat and couldn't fit in owt. Now i'm a 16 and happy!!! Do'h
Chin up Jo, let us know how you get on at the docs, and when you feel better do something really special with your boyf and reasure him that its not his fault.
dont pull your hair out jo i know that things can and will get hard but you cant keep things all in side can you?
im always here for you please just talk to me how an i help when i dont even know whats up?
cum on jo let me help you!
u know im shit t getting my feelings out (verbally) but im better at writing them down. but when i got u 2 read this u should have understood how im feeling.
anyway im really sorry 4 being such a cow 2 u i do love u sooooooo much and im sorry
Just try not to let it affect your life, thats the only advice I can really give.
"Honesty is just an excuse for lack of imagination."
this post is old. let it die. please!