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Me again (sorry)
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Hey peeple
Right I know ive posted a lot lately but everythin im feelin has to come out and now is as good a time as any.
I have no self-confidence at all. I am really skinny (I'm 17 and 8 stone), and my hip bone and some other bones stick out, just becoz I am so thin. The other thing is my nose, it is HUGE. It looks really stupid on my little face, and I honestly look daft. These things put together, i relaise i just look stupid. My feet are also huge, so I look like a duck with huge webbed feet whenever I go out. This is the worst bit, I feel really self-conicous too, sometimes when I look in a mirror, i think i look alright, then i go upstairs to look in another mirror i think i look bad. Its crazy, I have even seen myself on CCTV in my shop where I work, and my nose looks HUGE sticky-out and I just feel stupid. I look totally differnet on the CCTV (more ugly I reckon), and I just dont know what to do about it.
At my work, I get on well with people (girls too beleive it or not), and that does make me feel better. But at school, I get laughed at. For example today, I was sitting in regestartion class waiting for the bell to go, and these two girls outside were going "hey sexy etc" and giggling, obviously being sarkastik. I used to have glasses and get that a lot, now I have contacts I dont gte it so much, but it really damaged my self esteem today. And people on other internet notice boards have been tellin people that I have a big nose, greasy hair etc, and I'm ugly or whatever, and it absolutely kills me inside. I cant go through life like this, every time someone makes a remark, i go to pieces. I have such a fragile self esteem, and to be honest, I think about suicide every day.
I just needed to get that out, any help would be much appreciated.
Right I know ive posted a lot lately but everythin im feelin has to come out and now is as good a time as any.
I have no self-confidence at all. I am really skinny (I'm 17 and 8 stone), and my hip bone and some other bones stick out, just becoz I am so thin. The other thing is my nose, it is HUGE. It looks really stupid on my little face, and I honestly look daft. These things put together, i relaise i just look stupid. My feet are also huge, so I look like a duck with huge webbed feet whenever I go out. This is the worst bit, I feel really self-conicous too, sometimes when I look in a mirror, i think i look alright, then i go upstairs to look in another mirror i think i look bad. Its crazy, I have even seen myself on CCTV in my shop where I work, and my nose looks HUGE sticky-out and I just feel stupid. I look totally differnet on the CCTV (more ugly I reckon), and I just dont know what to do about it.
At my work, I get on well with people (girls too beleive it or not), and that does make me feel better. But at school, I get laughed at. For example today, I was sitting in regestartion class waiting for the bell to go, and these two girls outside were going "hey sexy etc" and giggling, obviously being sarkastik. I used to have glasses and get that a lot, now I have contacts I dont gte it so much, but it really damaged my self esteem today. And people on other internet notice boards have been tellin people that I have a big nose, greasy hair etc, and I'm ugly or whatever, and it absolutely kills me inside. I cant go through life like this, every time someone makes a remark, i go to pieces. I have such a fragile self esteem, and to be honest, I think about suicide every day.
I just needed to get that out, any help would be much appreciated.
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I went through the same thing, i was getting teased at school and thought of taking my life, but i got over it i'm past that now. Whenever someone says something just think i like me, Babybird likes me im a good person and ignore them. It may seem hard at first but u can do it. There are alot of people that have been in your situation and they've gotten over it, u can do the same!!
Ur just going through a depressing time it happens to everyone at some point in their lives, and stop thinking ur ugly cuz whats on the outside is not important and if u like girls where looks are what matters then there not worth it!!
Luv me
dont apologise about postin!
Self esteems a funny thing n i dont got much either <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/frown.gif"> but i think (hopefully) im builing sum up - i don't really know how, i think its from the site <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> the people on here make me feel good about myself - n i think well ne1 else who dontlikeme the can go fuck emselves coz they aint worf it! i know its hard, but we're all here to support u! <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
But u gotta be happy with urself and once u get that, thats all that matters <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
There's a girl in my mirror
I wonder who she is
Sometimes I think I know her
Sometimes I really wish I did
I have had girlfreinds before, i just get paranoid sometimes. This one girl I was with, it was really good, b coz she was a deep thinkin person and saw what was inside me. Its a shame b coz where I live, people are only too keen to have a go.
I just gotta concentrate on the good side, and one day i'll finally b happy.
Now's a different matter, I feel fat and ugly, and like, who'd want me!
but the way to deal is, you have to remember the good things people say, and ignore the bad.
Easy to say I know, but I've been trying to do this, and I know I got a lot more confidence than I had say, when I was 16!
And if someone gives you shit, well you just gotta think, how sad they are, getting off on making someone else feel bad!!
We are all in the gutter.
The difference between us is that some of us face skyward..
it does sound very much like its a self esteem problem, as you say yourself. if youre considering suicide i think you should see your doctor, if he cant help you then he can probably find someone for you to talk to who can help with building up your self esteem, and to talk abotu why you feel like suicide.
about the peopl ein school, theyre really not worth it, i learnt that a while ago myself. just think of the time when you dont have to see them anymore. for me, thats the end of the summer <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif"> theyre not important to you, you dont need them if theyre going to treat you like that, theyre just stupid and immature. try and think "fuck em" whenever they do stuff to you like name calling, etc. it works, honest <IMG alt="image" SRC="http://www.thesite.org/ubb/smile.gif">
and im sorry if this hasnt been much help.
It only takes one tree to make a thousand matches, only takes one match to burn a thousand trees
are you talking about who i think you're talking about?
And all the grown-ups say is sorry, cos we got no reply.
It only takes one tree to make a thousand matches, only takes one match to burn a thousand trees
UH UH!!! How wrong was i. It was no different. The damage had been done, my confidence had gone and i couldn't get it back. PE lessons where the worst especially when even the teachers left u sat in the corner waiting for half time to join in. THis would happen every week. If the teachers thought i was crap is it any wonder that the others did too.
I wasn't a healthy kid, always throwing up and was really skinny and therefore weak too, hense me being too lethargic to do sports.
I am now comming up to 23 years of age and i have put on loads of weight 3 stone. I have only just now got the confidence to go to the gym as i have a really good friend who is also about the same size as me, so i don't feel singled out.
I know what you are going through. ARe you still at School/College? If so trust me, it gets better when you get a proper job and mix with adults/different people, they tend not to stereotype people on their looks and can be a real confidence booster.