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Bunnie
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I dont know where this should go and Im sorry if its not here.
I dont know what to even write, I feel weird.
I had the abortion yesterday, I thought I was ok, but my cousin has just left me and now I'm on my own for the first time since it happened, and I cant stop crying. I feel so horrible, and I feel empty.
I need to scream sorry from the rooftops, but sorry isnt enough for what Ive done. I want to do something to show I am sorry, but I dont know how, and I dont know what to do.
I dont know if i should even be writing this here, but I dont know what else to do.
I dont know what to even write, I feel weird.
I had the abortion yesterday, I thought I was ok, but my cousin has just left me and now I'm on my own for the first time since it happened, and I cant stop crying. I feel so horrible, and I feel empty.
I need to scream sorry from the rooftops, but sorry isnt enough for what Ive done. I want to do something to show I am sorry, but I dont know how, and I dont know what to do.
I dont know if i should even be writing this here, but I dont know what else to do.
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I have no words of real comfort as I don't know what you are going through and I won't patronize you by saying I do. So all I will say is to allow yourself go through the emotions you need to. Let yourself grieve and let yourself cry. But remember that you had your own reasons and you *do not* need to apologize for anything.
Thinking of you xx
i just want some way of letting it know i am sorry, and i didnt do it lightly. i wouldnt put my worst enemy through this, its not a nice experience at all.
i am so grateful for everyones help and support, i dont know what id do if it wasnt for you lot.
thank you.
you did what you felt you had to do according to your circumstances. Youve got plenty of time ahead of you for children and this was an accident. Im sorry you had to go through this, and I hope it gets easier really soon.
Different women do different things. Out of the women I've seen/known, some will light candles, plant a small tree. One lady took the opportunity to make positive changes in her life, by getting out of a bad relationship and going to university. Some write poems. Do something that feels right for you.
Absolutely.
Despite feeling so low right now, you're going to start to get over this, and be able to accept it and move on with time. Your emotions are bound to be all over the place, and when you add in the adjustments your body needs to make physically it's completely understandable that you feel utterly confused and distraught. Just because this was the right decision for you, it doesn't mean that it was an easy decision and that is will then be an easy choice to recover from having made. There's no "normal" reaction to having an abortion, but I'd say the way you're feeling certainly isn't out of the ordinary.
In terms of apologising and getting across the seriousness of your decision, I think the right way will come to you in time and you'll find how you can best let go of those feelings. In the meantime, don't be hard on yourself... take good care, sweetheart. If you need a natter feel free, as always, to PM. Thinking of you