I’m non binary I’m queer

nem

I have survived domestic abuse and sexual assault

I have a lot of worries

Phone storage 

My skin 

Acne

Spots

My appearance > let go 

My face  > let go

My relationship struggles

My struggles in relationships > maintain DBT study, don’t isolate, don’t withdraw, have self-compassion, continue to learn DBT skills and DBT exercises, continue to engage myself socially so I can be happy and I can learn and I can

Put skills into practice and increase my wellbeing 

The rain> let go , can’t control 

My struggles in interpersonal relationships 

My struggles that seem to in particular emerge in romantic relationships and romantic interpersonal contexts > as above, also, continue to journal and self reflect 

My suicidal thoughts and ideations > Google it, go on a battle scars zoom and ask for advice 

My struggles to build and maintain healthy stable and fulfilling relationships of any kind that make me feel good 

Any time alone > minimise my time alone > plan ahead for time I expect I will be alone 

Any time that I spend alone 

That my umbrella is broken > buy a new one> could also order a better one on vinted 

That I could get more trauma

That I could get into a toxic relationship> don’t withdraw, take time to educate myself, set a goal to research this 

That any amount of time I spend alone is not good for me > plan to reduce 

That any exposure to homophobia is deeply damaging to me > explore more queer spaces, wear headphones more in public

Money

Money spending

Money and spending

Managing my money > keep tracking it

Wanting to track my spending > it’s okay to track your spending  

That I have no job > do the goals I set for this 

“The eating disorder” > could ring the beat help line, send more, Emails , attend Monday night chat room, attend ANAD Tuesday zoom 

Sleep > could start tracking again for data, 

Recurrent sleep difficulties > ring GP about meds 

No upcoming support from gallop this week that I am aware of  > ask for support from other services 

That my body may not be physically healthy > ring

The GP 

Diet

Dietary variety

Low dietary variety > ED support needed > ask for more support and engage with the support I currently have (ANAD, BEAT, email lines, tell them i have phone anxiety 

Monday

Plan for Monday

Not enough plan for Monday

Monday social time > the open mic is planned, i can go lib, i can look up other things too

Monday daytime

Monday day time social time 

Monday gay people social time 

Monday queer community time

Monday queer self care 

Monday queer community and chosen family time

Worried that not enough priority given to finding and building my queer community and chosen family on Monday day and Monday night but mainly Monday day time cus I want to / plan to / intend to go to the sunflower open mic on Monday 

That I may not be consuming enough calories to maintain my body and the body fat that I do have and the bones that I do have and the heart that I do have

That I may have health anxiety

That I am not prioritising enough time scheduled on Monday to building and finding my queer community and engaging with the queer community in Belfast  

That Tescos is triggering to me

That I don’t have enough of a plan for Maxol

That I spend too much money

That I get so stressed about money 

The Monzo app

That my phone is always low on storage 

That I get anxiety about my phone and phone charge

The cold 

The rain 

That I have no upcoming scheduled trauma informed support

That I have no upcoming clearly defined and with a date queer trauma informed abuse support 

That I cannot escape homophobia and misogyny that prevails in Northern Ireland

That every day I am more and more worn down by the homophobia and misogyny that is so prevalent in this horrible little country 

That my DBT goals are too much

That I self sabotage all relationships 

Lacking trauma-informed support

Lacking queer-informed support

Lacking eating disorder professional support 

Washing

Outfits 

Bin’s > make a plan to empty 

nem

I am stressed I am 23