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so_very_tired

Right now, I would love nothing more that to just curl up into a ball and just die. But I can't do that because I need to take my dog on a walk before it gets too dark.

shannon_164

hey @so_very_tired 🙂

it sounds like you’re going through a really difficult time at the moment - you deserve support!

i know you’ve said that although you want nothing more than to just curl up into a ball and just die, you can’t as you have to take your dog for a walk, i’m wondering if you feel able to keep yourself safe once you get back?

in case you need, im going to add some additional helplines that are available below - as well there is also a support chat this evening from 8pm-9:30pm too if you wanted to come along!

if you’re feeling unsafe pls reach out for immediate support from the following:
nhs 111 - england / scotland / wales (option 2 for mental health)

phone first - northern ireland (8am-6pm monday-friday; the number will vary depending on the health & social care trust area that you live in)

out of hours - northern ireland (6pm-7:30am monday-friday, 24/7 weekends; the number will vary depending on the health & social care trust area that you live in)

999 - england / scotland / wales / northern ireland

uk helplines - some of these are specific to england / scotland / wales / northern ireland & also depend on age too:
childline (24/7) - call 08001111

shout (24/7) - text ‘shout’ to 85258

hopeline (24/7) - text 88247

samaritans (24/7) - call 116123

lifeline (24/7) - call 08088088000

papyrus (24/7) - call 08000684141

inspire wellbeing (24/7) - call 08081890036

community advice and listening line (24/7) - call 0800132737

knus (24/7) - whatsapp 07700165687

mind (9am-6pm) - call 03001233393

rethink mental illness (9:30am-4pm) - call 03005000927

kooth (12pm-10pm) - webchat on website

saneline (4pm-10pm) - call 03003047000

calm (5pm-12am) - call 0800585858

suicide prevention uk (6pm-12am) - call 08005870800

sos (8pm-12am) - call 08001151505

we’re all here for you and are so proud of you for reaching out - you matter so much

so_very_tired

Thanks for the numbers, I have a psychiatrists that I might give a call at some point today or tomorrow or whenever I can be asked. I think right now, I'm going through some kind of severe depression episode due to some rececent events, so I'm just going to stay in my room all day and listen to depression vent playlists and wait for all this to go away on it's own.

And on a somwhat related note.

Here's that dog I was talking about. Her name is Poppy and she is probably one of the only things I care about right now.

shannon_164

that is really positive that you’re thinking about reaching out to your psychiatrist @so_very_tired - i know it can be really hard to take that step so i’m proud of you! it’s ok to take the day to rest and just get through it however you can, and if that’s sitting in your room all day and listening to music then that’s ok.

aw poppy is so cute!! i’m really glad that you have her, animals can be such a big help when we feel so low.

we are here for you if you want to share more