(Drunk suicidal thoughts) I have nothing to look forward to in life

bignosegirly0

I’m safe. I’m in therapy. During my last session, my therapist and I made a safety plan. My next session is next week.

Even though I’ve got a lot on my mind, I don’t want to type anything out. All I want to do is just bawl my eyes out.

I’ve tried everything to achieve a better life. And I’m tired of hoping for things to get better. When it won’t. This is just my life. And I’m realistically better off killing myself.

Sian321

Hi @bignosegirly0 , thank you for sharing your feelings here. How are you feeling this morning? From what you've shared, it sounds like things coming to an end with your therapist is feeling really daunting and emotional, and you're feeling very hopeless right now about the future or things ever feeling better. That sounds so overwhelming, and you're being really brave to talk about this.

Would you feel safe sharing with us some of the things on your safety plan that you and your therapist have agreed you could do if you do ever feel at risk?

After your therapy comes to a close, might there be any other forms of support that you'd ideally like to see for yourself?

We're all here and we're listening!

1:1 support can be found at:

Emergency services - 999, visit your local A&E
Samaritans - https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
Papyrus - https://www.papyrus-uk.org/
CALM - https://www.thecalmzone.net/
SHOUT 24/7 Text service - https://giveusashout.org/

bignosegirly0

@Sian321 hiya, I’ve cried a lot this morning before heading into work. Then I felt a little depressed due to the people I’m around and I’m feeling better now, thank you.

My safety plan comes with a list of questions, one includes one which says “what makes it more difficult to act on my urges” and I’ve answered with “the aftermath of failing”

Basically I have to recall a list of reasons to motivate me to keep going.