Ugh… I thought I’d be doing better this time around, now that I’m off SSRIs (or is it just hotter this year?) but something about being in this heat just makes me feel utterly bleurgh. I’m spending a lot of time in this one room in our house that’s very shaded and beautifully cool, but my own (small, sun-facing room) is a freaking oven. even with the curtains drawn for shade, it heats up and stays hot - well into the night too, so even with the windows open I need to take an ice pack to bed with me.
On a more serious note, between the sleep problems and the heat while awake, I’ve had a really bad week at work and made like a succession of dumb mistakes (plus I couldn’t go into the office because I’d have to wake super early and couldn’t get to sleep on time). My colleague was really nice about it but I’m scared of what my boss has been thinking and I have this anxiety lurking that at best he’ll want a Discussion when I go in on Monday, and at worst I’ll get fired. I don’t even really like this job but I don’t want to lose it in that way!
