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why does my mind have to terrify me
PunchThe_Internet
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Lately, over the past 2-4 weeks, there has been a significant change in my mental health. My thoughts feel disorganised, and it’s becoming increasingly difficult to speak fluently in a way that others can understand. I feel like i'm struggling. I keep stuttering, mixing up my words, or losing my thoughts entirely and forgetting what I was talking about. My mind just goes blank.
That;s not the main point though. Every so often, i get a disturbing image in my head. It's an image that truly disturbs me and produces a substantial amount of fear to where it's almost debilitating (i freeze). At the moment, it’s of an inhuman figure, something that falls into the uncanny valley category. He has pinpoint eyes and a smile. I feel like he wants to harm me. Physically, it feels as though I'm being followed. I sense a presence around me and it’s distressing. Lately with a lot of them, i’ve started telling them to leave me alone or to go away. But with this one, even though I can’t see him visually (since his image is in my head), I don’t think I'm able to speak. I’m scared that I might actually see him, or that he might do something to me. I want to erase his face from my mind, but it won’t go away.
Some of them have started speaking to me. More recently, I’ve been hearing voices and other sounds. I hear them speaking to me internally, and speaking at me externally. I still don’t understand what they want.
That;s not the main point though. Every so often, i get a disturbing image in my head. It's an image that truly disturbs me and produces a substantial amount of fear to where it's almost debilitating (i freeze). At the moment, it’s of an inhuman figure, something that falls into the uncanny valley category. He has pinpoint eyes and a smile. I feel like he wants to harm me. Physically, it feels as though I'm being followed. I sense a presence around me and it’s distressing. Lately with a lot of them, i’ve started telling them to leave me alone or to go away. But with this one, even though I can’t see him visually (since his image is in my head), I don’t think I'm able to speak. I’m scared that I might actually see him, or that he might do something to me. I want to erase his face from my mind, but it won’t go away.
Some of them have started speaking to me. More recently, I’ve been hearing voices and other sounds. I hear them speaking to me internally, and speaking at me externally. I still don’t understand what they want.
Please don't hug me
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