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How to stop BPD rage (urgent)
bignosegirly0
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i’m really sorry you’re going through this right now. i can tell this feels overwhelming, but i want you to know you’re not alone, we’re all here for you.
i know it might be hard, but maybe try to slow down your breathing? deep, slow breaths in and out. maybe you could step away from where you are, get some fresh air, or hold something cold like an ice pack or a glass of water - anything to help ground yourself in the present moment.
you don’t have to fight these feelings alone. have you been able to reach out to anyone who can help guide you through this? we all care about you, and we want to support you however we can. you’re not defined by these thoughts or feelings, and they will pass.
you’ve got this, i believe in you
there’s a place called kelly’s heroes - their wait time is quite literally a few seconds and they are super supportive too - they open at 6pm until 11pm so maybe you could give them ago if you felt comfy with that? they are also completely confidential too and can only involve emergency services etc if you give them your information, as i know that’s a worry for many.
website: https://kellysheroes.org.uk/
samaritans also have a webchat available at 6pm too, the queue closes at 10pm
website: https://www.samaritans.org
i hope you’re ok - always here for you
that all sounds incredibly overwhelming, and i’m really sorry you’re going through this. it makes complete sense that you’re feeling anxious about work, especially given everything that’s happened. no one should have to deal with harassment, and it’s awful that those guys are still finding ways to make you feel unsafe. the fact that they’re getting away with it just because they’re customers is really unfair, and i can imagine how frustrating that must be. you deserve to feel safe at work, and it’s horrible that this situation is making you feel so on edge.
i think reaching out to kelly’s heroes is a really good step, and i really hope they can provide you with some support and guidance. it’s a shame that samaritans web chat isn’t available at a time that works for you, i know how important it can be to have someone to talk to in the moment when you’re struggling.
on top of all that stress, dealing with extreme arm pain sounds exhausting, especially when it’s affecting your sleep. lack of rest definitely makes everything feel harder to cope with, and i can imagine that’s only adding to your anxiety about today. have you been able to find anything that helps with the pain? i hope it eases up soon because you definitely don’t need one more thing to deal with right now.
i completely understand why you’re dreading going into work today. it’s so disheartening to feel like you don’t fit in, especially when the environment is already difficult to navigate. the way your coworkers have treated you in the past is really unacceptable, and i hate that they refused to take responsibility when you spoke up. that kind of treatment would wear anyone down, and being autistic and hypersensitive just means that you’re more aware of it, there’s nothing wrong with that. it just means you deserve to be in a workplace where people respect you and make you feel comfortable, rather than one where you constantly feel on edge.
i really hope you hear back about that job interview soon because you deserve so much better than this. even though waiting is frustrating, it’s good that you’re taking steps toward something new - i’m proud of you for that! in the meantime, please be kind to yourself today. if things get tough at work, remind yourself that this situation isn’t permanent, and there are better things ahead for you.
you’ve got this, i believe in you
Thank you so much for this post and for describing what you were going through. The ruminations and fantasies you describe sound intense, and I hear how it felt as though you couldn't get 'out' of them - like being trapped in an all-consuming cycle. We hear you, and it's so positive that you're able to post here too and write these feelings down. It feels like you have a lot of self-awareness around this and you're noticing just how overwhelming your emotions can become. I also hear the hurt too in response to people who have mistreated you in the past. That feels really, really painful, and hard to reconcile.
It sounds positive to hear that you have an upcoming appointment hopefully to discuss this further. How are you feeling about the prospect of a possible diagnosis?
I saw on a different thread that work felt okay-enough today and that you were relieved to have gotten through your shift. I'm really glad to hear this as I know you had been very worried. I really hope you can take lots of care of yourself this evening and let yourself rest