TW today's feelings

ellie2000

I did wat I used to do which is to walk up the road infront traffic. They travelled like a slug while I walked I looked behind and saw them then I went on the pavement. But I'm gd, I found accommodation which is gd
Last town they travelled like a slug too 😊
Dw it won't become a habit

shannon_164

hey @ellie2000 🙂

i’m really glad you’re okay, but that sounds really risky, and it’s important you stay safe. you matter, and no one would want for anything to happen to you. has something been on your mind that made you do that? if you want to talk, about anything, im only a message away.

on a positive note, i’m really happy you found accommodation, that’s great news! i hope it’s a good place for you.

please look after yourself @ellie2000 - you are such an important person and bring so much to the world - i’m so so proud of you

ellie2000

@shannon_164 I tried to make it work but there were two sorts of ppl, the original ones who could do their job properly and those who I had to tell them 'thts not how you should do it' coz I experienced unprofessionalism b4. I look out 4 others too, nd point out risks n say. Wen management isn't here everything is relaxed. The manager had a place shut down b4 coz it was deemed inadequate coz I no how to research.
I all went down hill wen they abandoned me at therapy which gets intense sometimes, a carer came with me to therapy coz and she wanted to leave early she was in a huff. I sed 'well go then' she didn't budge then she texted the manager and he told her to leave. Wen the therapist came n wen sat down to tlk I told her about wat wat happening and the therapist went out and came back and sed tht she had left the building.
Since then they've been point scoring, putting me on a 'abc', dragging up things frm the past, false accusations etc
Mum says 'I just want u to b happy', which I am happy generally. Do u need to change myself?

shannon_164

hey @ellie2000 🙂

im really sorry you’ve been dealing with all of this, it sounds incredibly frustrating, especially when you’re trying your best to keep things professional and safe for everyone.

it’s tough when management or others don’t support you the way they should, especially during something as important as therapy. it’s understandable that you’re feeling overwhelmed and hurt by the lack of support - that feeling is so valid - and it sounds like they’re not treating you with the respect you deserve.

as for your mum’s comment, it sounds like she wants the best for you, but it’s also important to remember that you don’t need to change who you are to make others happy. you deserve to be valued for who you are, not just for meeting someone else’s expectations.

it’s okay to have moments of doubt, but know that you’re doing the best you can in a difficult situation, and that’s all anyone can ask for. if you’re happy in general, then that’s what matters most. you don’t have to prove anything to anyone, especially when they’re not treating you right.

i’m always here for you