wanting to give up

Lottie5433

I've had this feeling for a while of wanting to give up with everything, but now its like the only feeling i have.
Idk what to do.

TW: mention of ED/SH/SI

I've relapsed with my Self-harm again.
suicidal thoughts are ravenous
Eating Disorder is at full force again

I don't deserve support.
I don't need it - mental health team have discharged me now. Clearly fixed
I'm just a burden
What is the actual point anymore 😕
I'm exhausted trying to fight for myself anymore
I wish no one ever found out about anything.
I'm just a time waster and a revolving door patient.
People have better things to do than help me

I'm all better now - I've convinced everyone around me i am, just need to believe it myself; shut out, and numb out all this pain. Hide it away and be NORMAL - how hard can this be?

After this week, I'm done with trying to get help and engaging with the "help"; i don't want to see the ED health nurse anymore (maybe i can ignore her emails and calls?), don't need to talk to my old therapist anymore for wellbeing checks I'm Fine !, going to give up taking my medication and stop engaging with my Kooth worker.

i guess this is what my future will be 😔

eylah

@Lottie5433 you do deserve support you deserve to be listened to & to have support from professionals. i know your dealing with a lot rn but pls remember how important you are and that things can get better. i know theres not much i can say that will make you feel better but remember we all care abt you here at the mix and no matter what happens were always gonna be here for you . you matter.

just wanted to put these here just in case your needing a little bit of extra support today.

places you can turn to if your needing extra support but pls keep posting on here bc we want to support you

85258 shout
samaritans 116123
111 option 2 mental health support
111 for general health
999 if your in immediate danger