Giving up TW

River

I’m safe but yeah I’m just so tired of constantly fighting my brain nothing is changing I’m just stuck this crappy way and I hate it so much I don’t want to be this way anymore I just want to vanish till I can feel better.

I’m tired mentally and physically but nothing can be done. Everyday I just drown in my thoughts. I’m tired, tired of living like this, tired of existing, I just want this pain to go away, to be gone but not like dead to just not exist for awhile is okay

It wouldn’t matter anyway cos I’m being replaced left right and centre so it would be fine no one would notice nor care or miss having me around. More like I’d be doing people a favour

My annoying voice and personality wouldn’t be around so perfect for everyone. It’s easier to push all support and people away. I’d only be dragging them down with me more so it’s fine.

Just going to distance myself from everyone. Already muted and/or deleted social media. Need to push all support away so they aren’t wasting time on me.

But anyways I’m safe

bignosegirly0

Hey I'm really sorry that you're dealing with this. I'm sure that if you were to suddenly disappear, there will be someone who's world will completely crumble at their feet, and may find it difficult to stick the pieces back together. They'll likely be followed and taunted by immense guilt continuously for the rest of their life. Their average day won't feel right and almost empty, like there's a missing jigsaw piece. And I understand that from your perspective, you don't believe that anyone will be negatively affected by your disappearance. But I can guarantee that if you were to disappear, you will never truly disappear from the minds of those who treasure you as an individual. And they'll regret not treasuring you enough.