feeling silly - tw// self harm

shannon_164

hey:)

the past few days have been struggling a lot and as mentioned in the title, i ended up self harming. i am safe at the moment. i cleaned the cuts and have covered them.

today in class though, a teacher was handing out some pages to each of us in the middle of teaching, she was still explaining as she handed them out and noticed the bandage on my arm and then quietly said to me “what happened to your arm”, i didn’t want to announce self harm to my whole class, or even for the people nearby me to hear so i just responded with “oh im fine”.

i don’t know why this has got me so much:/ to the point it’s been my only focus since - even at lunch, one of the other teachers i have had spoke to me as i passed by her, she literally called my name a few times and yeah i just ignored her unintentionally - i then finally reacted and was like “oh hi” and i sorta feel bad because i just hadn’t acknowledged her at first then just said “oh hi”.

this all feels sooo silly because it really wasn’t that big of a deal but yeah im just being dramatic i guess:/

sinead276

just wanted to remind you that your feelings are completely valid and okay to feel. it's okay that even for a little while, what might be a small matter to someone else is impacting you more. it's what makes all human. i'm sure the teachers know you didn't mean anything bad by it, just like how the teacher probably didn't mean to make you feel bad by asking about the bandage either. i think all of us can have moments where we overthink things. but thats perfectly fine and doesn't make you any less of an amazing person

glad to hear your safe at the moment and sending you lots of hugs

Invisible_me

shannon_164 wrote: »

hey:)

the past few days have been struggling a lot and as mentioned in the title, i ended up self harming. i am safe at the moment. i cleaned the cuts and have covered them.

today in class though, a teacher was handing out some pages to each of us in the middle of teaching, she was still explaining as she handed them out and noticed the bandage on my arm and then quietly said to me “what happened to your arm”, i didn’t want to announce self harm to my whole class, or even for the people nearby me to hear so i just responded with “oh im fine”.

i don’t know why this has got me so much:/ to the point it’s been my only focus since - even at lunch, one of the other teachers i have had spoke to me as i passed by her, she literally called my name a few times and yeah i just ignored her unintentionally - i then finally reacted and was like “oh hi” and i sorta feel bad because i just hadn’t acknowledged her at first then just said “oh hi”.

this all feels sooo silly because it really wasn’t that big of a deal but yeah im just being dramatic i guess:/

Hi,
Well done for reaching out. Self harm can be an isolating thing to talk about but im pleased you are able to reach out to this community.

I understand what you mean, but try not to overthink it. It's okay? Sometimes we all miss people who are talking to us and then suddenly we are like oh sorry.. - im sure they will understand and you still said hi to them.

She probably asked out of concern and its completely okay if you didn't say then, don't think anyone would expect it when there's a class full of people. Even if it wasn't self harm and something else people still wouldnt be comfortable disclusing with everyone around.

It's good your safe and taking care of wounds! This is so important to do and remember you are important as well!! 💛

Do you have any support for this?, don't suffer alone..