i wish my mum was still here 💔

eylah

im rly missing my mum today i know ill get days where i miss her more then some days but its hit me so much that ill never see her again. i know she passed away in in september but it hasnt gotten any easier knowing i havent got my mum with me and its making me feel rly sad today. i am going to try be kind to myself like she would want me to but i rly could do with her rn but knowing that wont ever be a possibility ever again. i just need to get over it but i cant. i keep being called pathetic bc i am still crying over her and it hurts bc i cant just get over my mum bc she brought me into this world. i wish things were different bc im rly struggling ever since she passed away and i just wish i could be with her bc she was my everything.

i keep reminding myself of the gd times i had with her before she passed away but it just makes me feel ever sadder bc she never deserved to die and i have no one to turn to if i need it. so it’s made me rly sad i just wish i could see her beautiful face again bc she made me happy even though she was dealing with a lot she was such a beautiful woman inside & out. i just wish she knew that. i rly wish i could of done more for her before she passed but it just i cant get over it and it fucking kills

sry abt making this post im just feeling a lot of shit rn and im trying to figure everything out by myself bc i only have myself.

Orchid059

I'm so sorry you're going through this @eylah. Losing a mom is one of the hardest things anyone can experience, and it's okay to feel sad, confused, or even angry. You're not pathetic at all as grief is different for everyone and you do not need to put a time frame on when to feel better. Only you will be able to tell that, so don't let anyone else belittle you for feeling how you do. Your feelings are completely valid. Remember, it’s okay to take your time to grieve, and you don’t have to have all the answers right now. You’re not alone, and it's okay to lean on the community for support because we are here for you and we care. Your mom will always have a special place in your heart, and her love will always be with you, even though she’s not physically here.

eylah

thankyou @Orchid059 it means a lot to me .