my attempt at recovery🙂

struggling0_0

i really want 2025 to be a positive year and give recovery my all but i am also that person that feels like they’ve ruined everything if i mess up one day:( i already feel like ive ruined the whole year because the first 4 days of january haven’t been super positive and productive. i know that not everyday can be a perfect day, no matter how good your mental health is you’re gonna have down days too so i know already i have super unrealistic expectations for myself - that’s what annoys me about me, everyone else i’m always like “your best is enough and that’s all anyone should expect” but when it’s me my best just isn’t ever enough:(

i feel like having something to hold me accountable in a way for trying to recover could be helpful, hence this thread!

struggling0_0

this week has been a bit of an eh week i guess?

tw// mentions of self harm & disordered eating

positives:
•tidied my room
•washed my hair
•went to doctors
•done some diamond art
•read some of a book
•reached out to samaritans
•joined chats

negatives:
•relapsed with self harm
•pretended to doctor i felt better than i do
•had an argument with family
•struggled with eating

since i tidied my room look at my little jellycat collection, (the little cloud and mushroom aren’t jelly cats though) hehehe

struggling0_0

today i managed to get up, change my bedding, have a shower, wash my hair and dry my hair all by 12pm yay

i think im just going to try and finish of the diamond art picture ive been working on all week and then maybe do some college work if im in the mood for it later:)

Orchid059

Hi @struggling0_0 I can hear your frustration to get better and to have a good year and it sounds like you're very self-aware with the expectations you place on yourself. It's important to remain patient with yourself at this time as your days won't always be consistent and as frustrating as this is, it is completely normal. You know yourself better than anyone so only you can decide what counts as a productive day, but my advice is, even when you do have a low day try and find the positives within it. I am so glad to hear that you have managed those things today- It's the little wins that keep us going and that is something to be proud of. If monitoring your day by day helps you come to terms with your emotions then keep doing it! You are doing so well

struggling0_0

hey @Orchid059 thank you for reading and replying to me♡

i really am sooo aware of the fact i expect too much from myself, i have been really trying to find positives in everyday no matter how bad of a day it is but sometimes it’s really hard:(

thank you so much i appreciate it!

Riley_2001

struggling0_0 wrote: »

today i managed to get up, change my bedding, have a shower, wash my hair and dry my hair all by 12pm yay

i think im just going to try and finish of the diamond art picture ive been working on all week and then maybe do some college work if im in the mood for it later:)

Sounds lovely, you should be proud of yourself. ☺️ Even if you did 0.5% more than yesterday that’s still progress. You also had more positives happen than negatives, plus a clean and tidy room. If you try, you never fail. (Love the collection by the way)