What do people fucking want from me!!!

Rose113

Tried to speak to shout and I told the woman I feel like I’m wasting her time and then she says

“It feels like your struggling to connect with your strength and commitment to feel better. If now isn't the right time for you to take a step forward, we're here 24/7…Take care”

What do people fucking expect, I’ve been let down so many times that I don’t know how the fuck to even ask for help or talk to anyone about my fucking feelings anymore because I feel like this big fat worthless and unwanted cunt that can’t have fucking feelings without being a let down and a disappointment to everyone.

No one ever gives me a fucking chance to explain people always think they know me when shock horror people fucking don’t why can’t people let me be me without pinning silly little expectations on me! I’m fucking tired of it, I’m tired of being in this crap world but who the fuck cares anyone because clearly people think I don’t want to get better!!

If I didn’t want to fucking get better I wouldn’t be trying to speak to crisis lines all fucking night every god damn night so why can’t people fucking accept I’m trying when I have fucking no one in this crap world I’m a fucking lonely peice of crap that is gonna die alone without any fucking support

But whatever I’m invisible, made to feel not human and I’m not cared about! Thank you this fucking world for showing me that.

eylah

im so truly sry that this shout volunteer has made you feel utterly shit. i know from my own experience from shout they do this regularly & it does hurt so your feelings abt this is right and we hear you. maybe when you are in a better headspace you could put a complaint in abt this worker bc you deserve to be listened to and bc your deserving of support. how are you feeling now @Rose113 ? im here if you need to talk bc i care abt you so much and i hate seeing you feel so crap pls keep reaching out bc you matter!! we all care abt you at the mix ❤️

briannat

I agree with Eylah here,

It's not fair that's the response you received when you were needing help. I can hear that fight in you, that wants things to be better and it seems like this wasn't welcomed in that space. I'm sorry you had to go through that. What would you have prefered for them to say? We know that you're trying to get better and are rooting for you. Remember you have people in your corner

Rose113

Would of been better if they approached it differently instead of saying that and ending the chat @briannat