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2024
TheNightmare
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As 2024 is nearing its end, it’s been a very hard year overall. It was meant to be the year I got into work and had a sense of redemption, but in my opinion, it’s actually been the opposite, despite all my efforts. It started with a setback, and it’s been downhill from there, with job rejections, not hearing anything back from employers, being doubted, and getting hope from things only to end up back at square one. There’s been a lot of stress, low mood, uncertainty, sleepless nights, and self-doubt. This time last year, I thought I had a clear way out, but I ended up back at square one. I thought that was it, and I had people’s encouragement, but I jinxed it. I’ve been through situations like this before, and it’s been a knock to my confidence. I know I’m being a broken record by constantly going on about it, but it’s had a big impact, and I just feel like a lot of things have been a rough journey for me, not smooth at all.
The pain still carries on, and I really hope 2025 will be the year I improve. If I stay in this position or don’t make progress, I fear I’ll run out of time, and the pain will only get worse. Right now, I just want things to improve and the pain to stop. It’s been really tough, and it often feels like a constant battle, worrying about my future and situation and feeling bad about myself. I’m not in the Christmas mood at the moment, and in general, I often feel like I’m not in the mood to do anything. Most, if not all, of this I’ve struggled with alone, as I haven’t had many people in person to fully talk to about it. But I have this amazing community online, which has really helped me because I know that without it, the struggling might have been unmanageable. I’ve had very dark thoughts, but coming on here to talk and feel supported has made a big difference. The amount of support I have overall is crazy, I know how repetitive am but you understand. I just hope that 2025 will be the year I improve because if not, I feel like those dark thoughts will only grow bigger. The time it’s taking is just going to feel like it’s dragging on, and the pain will only increase. I think any improvements I have made has been due to the support here like you need the mindset to make changes which the support from here has helped me and I think with here by my side I can do this.
I hope that for now, I could get into the Christmas mood and that the new year brings an upward turn, but to be honest, I’m not feeling very confident about it. I do think it’s possible, and I really hope it happens soon. I’m relying on it because I don’t know what to do if it doesn’t I can’t go on like this for much longer. In the end, though, I am safe though.
The pain still carries on, and I really hope 2025 will be the year I improve. If I stay in this position or don’t make progress, I fear I’ll run out of time, and the pain will only get worse. Right now, I just want things to improve and the pain to stop. It’s been really tough, and it often feels like a constant battle, worrying about my future and situation and feeling bad about myself. I’m not in the Christmas mood at the moment, and in general, I often feel like I’m not in the mood to do anything. Most, if not all, of this I’ve struggled with alone, as I haven’t had many people in person to fully talk to about it. But I have this amazing community online, which has really helped me because I know that without it, the struggling might have been unmanageable. I’ve had very dark thoughts, but coming on here to talk and feel supported has made a big difference. The amount of support I have overall is crazy, I know how repetitive am but you understand. I just hope that 2025 will be the year I improve because if not, I feel like those dark thoughts will only grow bigger. The time it’s taking is just going to feel like it’s dragging on, and the pain will only increase. I think any improvements I have made has been due to the support here like you need the mindset to make changes which the support from here has helped me and I think with here by my side I can do this.
I hope that for now, I could get into the Christmas mood and that the new year brings an upward turn, but to be honest, I’m not feeling very confident about it. I do think it’s possible, and I really hope it happens soon. I’m relying on it because I don’t know what to do if it doesn’t I can’t go on like this for much longer. In the end, though, I am safe though.
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