2024

TheNightmare

As 2024 is nearing its end, it’s been a very hard year overall. It was meant to be the year I got into work and had a sense of redemption, but in my opinion, it’s actually been the opposite, despite all my efforts. It started with a setback, and it’s been downhill from there, with job rejections, not hearing anything back from employers, being doubted, and getting hope from things only to end up back at square one. There’s been a lot of stress, low mood, uncertainty, sleepless nights, and self-doubt. This time last year, I thought I had a clear way out, but I ended up back at square one. I thought that was it, and I had people’s encouragement, but I jinxed it. I’ve been through situations like this before, and it’s been a knock to my confidence. I know I’m being a broken record by constantly going on about it, but it’s had a big impact, and I just feel like a lot of things have been a rough journey for me, not smooth at all.

The pain still carries on, and I really hope 2025 will be the year I improve. If I stay in this position or don’t make progress, I fear I’ll run out of time, and the pain will only get worse. Right now, I just want things to improve and the pain to stop. It’s been really tough, and it often feels like a constant battle, worrying about my future and situation and feeling bad about myself. I’m not in the Christmas mood at the moment, and in general, I often feel like I’m not in the mood to do anything. Most, if not all, of this I’ve struggled with alone, as I haven’t had many people in person to fully talk to about it. But I have this amazing community online, which has really helped me because I know that without it, the struggling might have been unmanageable. I’ve had very dark thoughts, but coming on here to talk and feel supported has made a big difference. The amount of support I have overall is crazy, I know how repetitive am but you understand. I just hope that 2025 will be the year I improve because if not, I feel like those dark thoughts will only grow bigger. The time it’s taking is just going to feel like it’s dragging on, and the pain will only increase. I think any improvements I have made has been due to the support here like you need the mindset to make changes which the support from here has helped me and I think with here by my side I can do this.

I hope that for now, I could get into the Christmas mood and that the new year brings an upward turn, but to be honest, I’m not feeling very confident about it. I do think it’s possible, and I really hope it happens soon. I’m relying on it because I don’t know what to do if it doesn’t I can’t go on like this for much longer. In the end, though, I am safe though.

sinead276

@TheNightmare - fingers crossed 2025 is your year and your goals are achieved. i have every faith and confidence they will. remember to be kind to yourself too, as that is ultimately the most important thing. we are all here for you and cheering you on

kaii

Thank you for sharing your thoughts @TheNightmare, I hope in 2025 you'll be where you want to be. The community's always here to support you whenever you need us

We're extremely proud of your progress. We're extremely proud of you for not giving up even when it feels like you can't continue the battle. Like @sinead276 said, give yourself some grace whenever things don't turn out the way you expect them to - remember that it's completely okay to take breaks.

I believe that you'll be where you want to be eventually

shannon_164

@TheNightmare i know i haven’t been on the boards all that long now but i just want to say im SO proud of you for everything you’ve done this year and for never giving up no matter what life has thrown at you, that is such an achievement!! you’re strength amazes me as i know how difficult it can be to not give up💙

Sian321

Hey @TheNightmare , thank you so much for making this post. I can really hear just how tough this past year has been, fighting a constant battle against set-backs, stress, low-mood, constant uncertainity, and sleepless nights. I know I haven't been here on Community too long, but even in the few months I have been here, I've seen you time and time again keep striving towards the goals and ambitions you've set for yourself, and I'm so moved by your resilience and determination. It is extreamly difficult to remain resilient when you're also battling dark thoughts and you're in a lot of pain. I can imagine it's been exhausting at times, and it feels like 2024 has been a year with very little relief for you. With that in mind, it makes so much sense that in these final weeks of the year you don't feel in a Christmas mood. Perhaps you're needing something else right now - such as rest, or calm and quiet. That's so valid.

You mentioned this year has also really knocked your confidence, and I hear you. Again, that sounds really hard, because it can hurt a lot when events shape the ways we think and feel about ourselves. I really hope that 2025 can be a year that you're able to re-grow some of that belief in yourself, because you deserve it so much. Thinking about how you feel right now at the end of 2024, what do you think taking care of yourself in 2025 could look like, and what might you be needing to re-grow some of your confidence?

Keep us updated, @TheNightmare , and we're all here for you. I hope you can allow these last few days of 2024 to be whatever you're needing, without the pressure to show up in any particular way!

TheNightmare

Sian321 wrote: »

Hey @TheNightmare , thank you so much for making this post. I can really hear just how tough this past year has been, fighting a constant battle against set-backs, stress, low-mood, constant uncertainity, and sleepless nights. I know I haven't been here on Community too long, but even in the few months I have been here, I've seen you time and time again keep striving towards the goals and ambitions you've set for yourself, and I'm so moved by your resilience and determination. It is extreamly difficult to remain resilient when you're also battling dark thoughts and you're in a lot of pain. I can imagine it's been exhausting at times, and it feels like 2024 has been a year with very little relief for you. With that in mind, it makes so much sense that in these final weeks of the year you don't feel in a Christmas mood. Perhaps you're needing something else right now - such as rest, or calm and quiet. That's so valid.

You mentioned this year has also really knocked your confidence, and I hear you. Again, that sounds really hard, because it can hurt a lot when events shape the ways we think and feel about ourselves. I really hope that 2025 can be a year that you're able to re-grow some of that belief in yourself, because you deserve it so much. Thinking about how you feel right now at the end of 2024, what do you think taking care of yourself in 2025 could look like, and what might you be needing to re-grow some of your confidence?

Keep us updated, @TheNightmare , and we're all here for you. I hope you can allow these last few days of 2024 to be whatever you're needing, without the pressure to show up in any particular way!

Hey @Sian321

Thanks a lot genuinely for your kind words—they really mean a lot. I’ve truly appreciated seeing you around here and always enjoy your thoughtful replies. I was worried about being repetitive and not getting any responses, but seeing messages like yours has been so uplifting.

Thanks again for your support—it’s made a real difference!

Take care.

TheNightmare

kaii wrote: »

Thank you for sharing your thoughts @TheNightmare, I hope in 2025 you'll be where you want to be. The community's always here to support you whenever you need us

We're extremely proud of your progress. We're extremely proud of you for not giving up even when it feels like you can't continue the battle. Like @sinead276 said, give yourself some grace whenever things don't turn out the way you expect them to - remember that it's completely okay to take breaks.

I believe that you'll be where you want to be eventually

@kaii Really appreciate all the kind comments bro hopefully I will get where I want to be next year. It really does mean a lot that you're proud of me honestly. Thanks so much your reply

TheNightmare

shannonxg_ wrote: »

@TheNightmare i know i haven’t been on the boards all that long now but i just want to say im SO proud of you for everything you’ve done this year and for never giving up no matter what life has thrown at you, that is such an achievement!! you’re strength amazes me as i know how difficult it can be to not give up💙

@shannonxg_ means so much to hear you're all proud of me and I'm so glad you joined and great to see you round, thanks a lot.

TheNightmare

sinead276 wrote: »

@TheNightmare - fingers crossed 2025 is your year and your goals are achieved. i have every faith and confidence they will. remember to be kind to yourself too, as that is ultimately the most important thing. we are all here for you and cheering you on

@sinead276 thanks so much for the encouragement and the positivity. I really appreciate it all genuinely. Thanks so so much.