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AlmostEternity
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Warning: This post is going to change subjects very often and may seem confusing. Sorry, it's just how I am when irritated.
I've been finding myself really angry lately. Mostly at my friends and this one guy I find a complete jerk. He kinda just bumped his way into the friend group I'm in(not that I mind that).
Let me explain why I dislike this guy so much.
The first time I saw him, he was suddenly hanging around some of my friends. He turns, and the first thing that comes out of his mouth about me is an insult.
From there, it's a scattered trails of jabs that I've been finding increasingly difficult to not retaliate to and that lead to rants on the bus when I'm alone with my friends who are on the same bus with me.
I recently got a new haircut that I absolutely hate, and wore an expensive leather jacket(I got it from a family friend, it's not like my family's rich) that I got back from being specially washed that I wore to school for the first time yesterday.
I also got a girlfriend(I haven't had one in a few years) last Friday, which put me in a pretty good mood for most of Monday.
...Until I run in this person I dislike.
I'd been telling people about my girlfriend, who isn't pretty by most people's standards(which is what I had told my friends when they asked how she looked.), but who I liked because she liked me and how nice she is. This kid (I guess one of my friends mentioned it to him or whatever or maybe he overhead me speaking) asked me why I was going around calling my girlfriend ugly, so I responded by saying that's not what I said, and he gives me this look like I'm lying or I'm crazy.
Then he has the audacity to tell me I look like a pedophile in my leather jacket with this horrible haircut I have. I ask him how he knows what a pedophile looks like, since I had to...deal* with a child predator and pedophile when I was younger, so I have room to talk. I have always hated those 'child safety' presentations against such things, and hate when people just bring stuff like it up randomly into talks.
He tells me his uncle was a pedophile and I look exactly like him, and gives me this look like I insulted him or I did something wrong.
If he wants to play that game, I can tell him my uncle died this last Thanksgiving.
Not saying that (if his uncle really was a pedophile) having to deal with such stuff isn't important, but you don't insult people like that at random or bring up stuff like that into a conversation thoughtlessly. If you need to talk about it, it's fine, but you don't use it the way he did.
What the hell?
Is it me?
Did I do something to make him start insulting me?
Am I in the wrong here?
I woke up several times through the night and spent an hour and half literally just thinking about this incident. It took a lot to hold my tongue and not start yelling at him then and there.
*sigh*
Help?
*I can definitely say this isn't the source of my OCD and depression, since it happened when I was around four to six, but I've been having to/going to have to deal with the impact of it my entire life, other than emotionally. I guess I'm saying it's been such a long time I've gotten what happened emotionally, although I'm going to have to still deal with it(for instance, pressing charges) later in life.
I don't feel like elaborating (nor do I feel comfortable elaborating) on the event I went through when I was younger or the circumstances surrounding them. I hope no one minds.
I've been finding myself really angry lately. Mostly at my friends and this one guy I find a complete jerk. He kinda just bumped his way into the friend group I'm in(not that I mind that).
Let me explain why I dislike this guy so much.
The first time I saw him, he was suddenly hanging around some of my friends. He turns, and the first thing that comes out of his mouth about me is an insult.
From there, it's a scattered trails of jabs that I've been finding increasingly difficult to not retaliate to and that lead to rants on the bus when I'm alone with my friends who are on the same bus with me.
I recently got a new haircut that I absolutely hate, and wore an expensive leather jacket(I got it from a family friend, it's not like my family's rich) that I got back from being specially washed that I wore to school for the first time yesterday.
I also got a girlfriend(I haven't had one in a few years) last Friday, which put me in a pretty good mood for most of Monday.
...Until I run in this person I dislike.
I'd been telling people about my girlfriend, who isn't pretty by most people's standards(which is what I had told my friends when they asked how she looked.), but who I liked because she liked me and how nice she is. This kid (I guess one of my friends mentioned it to him or whatever or maybe he overhead me speaking) asked me why I was going around calling my girlfriend ugly, so I responded by saying that's not what I said, and he gives me this look like I'm lying or I'm crazy.
Then he has the audacity to tell me I look like a pedophile in my leather jacket with this horrible haircut I have. I ask him how he knows what a pedophile looks like, since I had to...deal* with a child predator and pedophile when I was younger, so I have room to talk. I have always hated those 'child safety' presentations against such things, and hate when people just bring stuff like it up randomly into talks.
He tells me his uncle was a pedophile and I look exactly like him, and gives me this look like I insulted him or I did something wrong.
If he wants to play that game, I can tell him my uncle died this last Thanksgiving.
Not saying that (if his uncle really was a pedophile) having to deal with such stuff isn't important, but you don't insult people like that at random or bring up stuff like that into a conversation thoughtlessly. If you need to talk about it, it's fine, but you don't use it the way he did.
What the hell?
Is it me?
Did I do something to make him start insulting me?
Am I in the wrong here?
I woke up several times through the night and spent an hour and half literally just thinking about this incident. It took a lot to hold my tongue and not start yelling at him then and there.
*sigh*
Help?
*I can definitely say this isn't the source of my OCD and depression, since it happened when I was around four to six, but I've been having to/going to have to deal with the impact of it my entire life, other than emotionally. I guess I'm saying it's been such a long time I've gotten what happened emotionally, although I'm going to have to still deal with it(for instance, pressing charges) later in life.
I don't feel like elaborating (nor do I feel comfortable elaborating) on the event I went through when I was younger or the circumstances surrounding them. I hope no one minds.
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