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Hate December

Chloe234Chloe234 Community Champion Posts: 3,660 Community Veteran
edited December 1 in Health & Wellbeing
It's December and I just hate it. I hate this time of year. It's the month I've gotta act as if everything isn't completely torn apart. I've gotta act like I'm in the christmas spirit. I gotta act like mentally I'm not just hanging by the edge. I hate this time of year so much

Christmas isn't christmas anymore. My stepmom and nan who were the hearts of it are gone. My mental health is so much worse than the other years. I wish this is the time of year we can just skip past

I wasn't even supposed to make it to the end of February, let alone December and soon a new year.

It's literally just the 1st day of December yet it still feels so fucking gut wrenching. I wasn't supposed to see a new year. But I guess I have to try stick to the fact, I can't ruin this time of year for everyone else.
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  • shannonxg_shannonxg_ Posts: 257 The Mix Regular
    i hear how difficult this time of year is for you chloe, you’re not alone🩷

    i know that you say you weren’t meant to make it to the end of february let alone december but im so glad you’re still here - you’re such an amazing person! you’re so so strong for getting through all this, im super proud of you🩷

    i’m always here if you need someone🩷
  • Chloe234Chloe234 Community Champion Posts: 3,660 Community Veteran
    Thankyou so much @shannonxg_ <3 I just wish this time of rhe year wasn't always so shit yet having to act like it's not
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  • shannonxg_shannonxg_ Posts: 257 The Mix Regular
    Chloe234 wrote: »
    Thankyou so much @shannonxg_ <3 I just wish this time of rhe year wasn't always so shit yet having to act like it's not

    i wish that it was a better time of year for you chloe!! i know it can be super hard as it’s all you hear about - i know one thing that i struggle with most at this time of year is just simply seeing families wanting to be around each other. i promise you you’re not alone, and im here for you if you ever want to talk about anything, i can understand from my own experience how difficult it can be.

    you’ve got this, i believe in you🩷
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,700 Extreme Poster
    also wanted to say how proud i am of you @Chloe234 - i know how challenging this time of year can be for a lot of people. and like the others have said, we are all here for you over this holiday/festive period as always <3
  • Alwayshope2dayAlwayshope2day Posts: 29 Boards Initiate
    edited December 1
    @Chloe234, We're so glad you're still here.
    Christmas 100% can feel like having to put on a "mask of merriment," with pressures to join in with the cheer of partying, secret santa, putting up decorations, and christmas wishes.
    You don't have to put up that mask with us :) Is there a friend, even if it's just one, you can be real with offline? When my parent had cancer, I had one friend who said "If it sucks, you can say it sucks." Knowing who those people are that you can kick off your shoes and let it all hang loose with, really helps. We're definitely some of those people. We're here if you wanna talk- nothing is too big or small <3
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 209 Trailblazer
    Chloe we are all so proud of you and you don’t have to hide or fake anything here. You want to cry cry you want to scream at how everything isn’t alright go for it we’re here but just know hating Christmas doesn’t make you a bad person, a lot of people do and it’s alright, you have your reasons and no one has a right to invalidate them.

    Right here for you Chloe you’ve got this ❤️
  • briannatbriannat Moderator, Staff Posts: 84 Budding Regular
    Hey Chloe,

    I promise you're not alone in dreading this time of the year. It's hard enough when it's bringing up memories of loved ones who are no longer with us, but then on top of that the added expectation to be happy and enjoy it is honestly too much. I'm really glad that despite your past, you're still here and alive to type out this post. That takes a lot of courage and strength so I'm proud of you <3 I hope you keep turning to community for support during the holidays as I know there are others who must feel the same way.
  • shannonxg_shannonxg_ Posts: 257 The Mix Regular
    Chloe234 wrote: »
    Thankyou @shannonxg_ @sinead276 @Alwayshope2day @Lucy_21 @briannat <3 I dont have the energy to fully reply right now as im not really talking to many people but ill reply soon <3 just wanted to say thankyou

    take as much time as you need chloe!!🩷
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,700 Extreme Poster
    @Chloe234 thats perfectly okay. like shannon said take all the time you need. we’ll be here when you’re ready 💕
  • Invisible_meInvisible_me Posts: 164 Helping Hand
    Omg, @Chloe234 , same!!! I want to skip December. It's all to hard to deal with with the expectation to be happy, changes, Decorations and I'm dreading to think how I'm supposed to manage .

    Though chloe , so glad your still here... we'll get through it together!! 💛

    This time if year brings back horrible memories and past greif we havebt managed to process.
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