Mori

JJLemon18

Do you ever have a song that you love to listen to, but the lyrics make you feel a very different way than the music?

Well recently I've experienced a song like that - its a Polish song called Mori. This may sound weird but I first heard it some time ago and thought to myself "hm nice song" and added it to my playlist. It plays occasionally, its just a nice song. But the lyrics always avoided me, came in through one ear and left out the other. The lyrics were just words, spoken to the beat, complimenting the melody.
Recently I'm not sure what happened, but I listened to the words carefully, I finally heard the lyrics...
They stopped being words and instead became emotions, meanings, teachings and experiences.

I rarely cry. But here I was, tears spontaneous crashing down my cheeks, to a song I've heard plenty before. There's a couple songs like that, ones that I'll listen to just a little too closely, where something 'clicks' and I'll just cry, seemingly out of nowhere. I really wanted to sing this particular song, but sometimes when I'm alone and get too into it, I struggle to keep myself together.

This is a song about death, as its title suggests. And one might think "how did you not understand the lyrics sooner?? Its so obvious what its about!" And to that, I really just don't know. Never paid enough attention to it, the song was just there, existing in the background.

I translated the lyrics as best as I could, but its not important reading them. Its a pretty heavy song:

I must go
They're calling me there now
Its cold today
And I wanted for a little longer-
To hold your hand
Feel how the pleasant electricity flows through

And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Please don't be so hasty
I'm asking you to chill
My heart is breaking
My ground is burning
I'm begging not yet
Just a few more words...

And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gate, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes

And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here

I'm not allowed-
To delay another moment
Its terribly crowded here
You were all meant to come later
I'm flowing and-
They're taking me far away from here

And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Go take someone else
I'll be staying here
I can feel your heart
It doesn't want to stop beating
I beg just another moment
Just a few more words

And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gates, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes

And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here

I looked up the song on youtube, wanted to see the official video for it, out of curiosity - but the video is not what I stayed for...
I ended up reading through the comments, full of people praising the song, but also sharing their own experiences; losing parents, children, lovers, etc. It was really hard to read, and at one point I couldn't carry on. Many of them were saying it was cancer causing so much loss.
While I'm here all alone, and my dad is in hospital fighting for his life, all because of cancer...


Note: I wrote this a few days ago, I just didn't feel comfortable enough posting it yet. Today my dad is finally coming home. But its nowhere near over...

Thanks for reading

Oh and share your own music experiences too here! I'd love to hear them