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Mori
JJLemon18
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Do you ever have a song that you love to listen to, but the lyrics make you feel a very different way than the music?
Well recently I've experienced a song like that - its a Polish song called Mori. This may sound weird but I first heard it some time ago and thought to myself "hm nice song" and added it to my playlist. It plays occasionally, its just a nice song. But the lyrics always avoided me, came in through one ear and left out the other. The lyrics were just words, spoken to the beat, complimenting the melody.
Recently I'm not sure what happened, but I listened to the words carefully, I finally heard the lyrics...
They stopped being words and instead became emotions, meanings, teachings and experiences.
I rarely cry. But here I was, tears spontaneous crashing down my cheeks, to a song I've heard plenty before. There's a couple songs like that, ones that I'll listen to just a little too closely, where something 'clicks' and I'll just cry, seemingly out of nowhere. I really wanted to sing this particular song, but sometimes when I'm alone and get too into it, I struggle to keep myself together.
This is a song about death, as its title suggests. And one might think "how did you not understand the lyrics sooner?? Its so obvious what its about!" And to that, I really just don't know. Never paid enough attention to it, the song was just there, existing in the background.
I translated the lyrics as best as I could, but its not important reading them. Its a pretty heavy song:
I looked up the song on youtube, wanted to see the official video for it, out of curiosity - but the video is not what I stayed for...
I ended up reading through the comments, full of people praising the song, but also sharing their own experiences; losing parents, children, lovers, etc. It was really hard to read, and at one point I couldn't carry on. Many of them were saying it was cancer causing so much loss.
While I'm here all alone, and my dad is in hospital fighting for his life, all because of cancer...
Note: I wrote this a few days ago, I just didn't feel comfortable enough posting it yet. Today my dad is finally coming home. But its nowhere near over...
Thanks for reading
Oh and share your own music experiences too here! I'd love to hear them
Well recently I've experienced a song like that - its a Polish song called Mori. This may sound weird but I first heard it some time ago and thought to myself "hm nice song" and added it to my playlist. It plays occasionally, its just a nice song. But the lyrics always avoided me, came in through one ear and left out the other. The lyrics were just words, spoken to the beat, complimenting the melody.
Recently I'm not sure what happened, but I listened to the words carefully, I finally heard the lyrics...
They stopped being words and instead became emotions, meanings, teachings and experiences.
I rarely cry. But here I was, tears spontaneous crashing down my cheeks, to a song I've heard plenty before. There's a couple songs like that, ones that I'll listen to just a little too closely, where something 'clicks' and I'll just cry, seemingly out of nowhere. I really wanted to sing this particular song, but sometimes when I'm alone and get too into it, I struggle to keep myself together.
This is a song about death, as its title suggests. And one might think "how did you not understand the lyrics sooner?? Its so obvious what its about!" And to that, I really just don't know. Never paid enough attention to it, the song was just there, existing in the background.
I translated the lyrics as best as I could, but its not important reading them. Its a pretty heavy song:
I must go
They're calling me there now
Its cold today
And I wanted for a little longer-
To hold your hand
Feel how the pleasant electricity flows through
And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Please don't be so hasty
I'm asking you to chill
My heart is breaking
My ground is burning
I'm begging not yet
Just a few more words...
And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gate, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes
And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here
I'm not allowed-
To delay another moment
Its terribly crowded here
You were all meant to come later
I'm flowing and-
They're taking me far away from here
And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Go take someone else
I'll be staying here
I can feel your heart
It doesn't want to stop beating
I beg just another moment
Just a few more words
And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gates, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes
And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here
They're calling me there now
Its cold today
And I wanted for a little longer-
To hold your hand
Feel how the pleasant electricity flows through
And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Please don't be so hasty
I'm asking you to chill
My heart is breaking
My ground is burning
I'm begging not yet
Just a few more words...
And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gate, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes
And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here
I'm not allowed-
To delay another moment
Its terribly crowded here
You were all meant to come later
I'm flowing and-
They're taking me far away from here
And what if I don't want to
What if I rebel
Go take someone else
I'll be staying here
I can feel your heart
It doesn't want to stop beating
I beg just another moment
Just a few more words
And even if...
Then I'll take with me a bouquet of roses
I'll be waiting at the gates, looking down
In your spare time look up at me sometimes
And even if...
Then don't worry I remember every day
And there will always be space beside me
Waiting for when you will join me here
I looked up the song on youtube, wanted to see the official video for it, out of curiosity - but the video is not what I stayed for...
I ended up reading through the comments, full of people praising the song, but also sharing their own experiences; losing parents, children, lovers, etc. It was really hard to read, and at one point I couldn't carry on. Many of them were saying it was cancer causing so much loss.
While I'm here all alone, and my dad is in hospital fighting for his life, all because of cancer...
Note: I wrote this a few days ago, I just didn't feel comfortable enough posting it yet. Today my dad is finally coming home. But its nowhere near over...
Thanks for reading
Oh and share your own music experiences too here! I'd love to hear them
Believe in me - who believes in you
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Comments
Reading the lyrics made me tear up there 😅 I hear music probably different to most people because of my cochlear but I can definitely relate to being shocked when I finally listen the lyrics of a song I’ve been “listening” to for a while.. Some of them anyway.
While my dad was fighting cancer I found lyrics more comforting than before because they always found a way to word how I felt when I didn’t know how to... but I hate crying 😂
I can see why that song would be emotional for you. Sure you’re going through a lot with your dad being unwell and you’ve probably all sorts going through your mind. Do you think it’s a song you’ll keep listening to?
I’m glad to hear your dad is coming back home, how is he doing mate? And how are you doing?
Sending hugs and strength 💚
This song is so intense. First off, thank you so much for sharing it. It's not often that we get to listen to a song that makes us react so strongly. It's bittersweet to be reminded of painful emotions we're facing but also see that we're not alone in what we're feeling. It sounds like reading through the comments, reading through the lyrics and even singing along is a really cathartic experience for you.There's a sort of painful beauty in recognizing that this song gives you an opportunity to experience the full extent of your emotions.
I can hear that this song triggered a lot of painful emotions for you. What do you do afterwards when listening to this song? It's important to try and engage in an activity that brings you a bit of warmth and comfort so you don't stay too long in those negative feelings.
How is it with your dad being home now? Having a loved one go through cancer can be really awful, and I'm sorry this is something you're experiencing. I just want to say you're not alone and we absolutely care about what you have to say during this time. There is support for your situation. Maybe you'd be interested in checking out
Thank you for sharing this song, I'm sure there are several people on community who can resonate with what you've shared
I'm really sorry to hear about your dad too
How come the world is suddenly so full of cancer...
Also yes, very often lyrics seem to 'word' how I feel when even I don't know how I'd explain it myself. Sometimes they show me things I didn't even know I was thinking about, if that makes sense.
Definitely. Its still a song after all, it now just means a lot more than it used to. Over time the emotions tone down and the song starts to feel more normal again. Will no doubt try singing it too when the opportunity arises xD
He's doing better and better each day, which I'm super happy about. He's just really weak and still healing from an operation. And me - I'm ok, just trying to take each day as it is and trying to find something to do cause I hate where my life is at honestly.
I just got an crazy realisation which I can't believe I didn't notice. The song both starts and ends with the words "I'm coming back home" (in English) being repeated in the background. It could have a million different meanings, but the way I interpret it - its my dad coming back home, after 'They' once again let him go, and give him another day, another moment... for who knows how long.
I'm so sorry
@briannat Thank you for your reply too!
Yeah I agree. There is some comfort in knowing I'm not the only one going through difficult times. I don't know what I do after; I kinda just feel the emotions when listening and then I just let it go and move on with my day.
I did just read a few more comments under the video, and somehow theres so many people losing their dad (in particular) at the age of 21... whyyy
Thanks a lot for the links. We contacted macmillan with an issue we've had but unfortunately when we needed them they just told us they have no agents to help us with our case or something, and then they ghosted us.
Also just checked the second service and they have no centres near where we live
Not sure what I'd get from them anyway, seems we are managing by ourselves better anyway.
But yea, thanks for the reply again. It means a lot
This is actually really good!