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(Mentions of suicidal ideation) What the fuck is wrong with me?
bignosegirly0
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For probably two years now, I've been constantly dreading about how I'll never find love (due to years of men pulling me down for being ugly and never experiencing any romantic experiences). I constantly cry about how I'll never mean anything in this world, how I dread being alone in my fifties and would rather be dead. And as I'm going through this emotional episode, crying my heart out, I suddenly view this thought process of "I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life" in a neutral/emotionless manner. My intense crying just stops in an instance and I feel calm again.
What the fuck is wrong with me?
What the fuck is wrong with me?
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Sometimes, when we're in deep emotional pain, our minds find ways to cope, and that can sometimes look like detaching from the intensity of those emotions. It might feel confusing, but it can be a way of finding a break from all that hurt, even if it’s temporary.
Have you noticed if there are specific triggers for these thoughts?
I'm also aware you expressed some heavy feelings there around living - can I ask if you feel as though you can keep yourself safe at the minute?
Remember there are lots of services out there that you can reach out to for support:
Also, I am able to keep myself safe. The main thing that's stopping me from acting on these thoughts is the fact that most suicide attempts end up unsuccessful and can lead to life-lasting disabilities. As much as I don't want to carry on, I don't want to risk making things worse.
Sending hugs