Wtf do I do

Rose113

So yesterday I found out my boyfriend told my college friend stuff that I didn’t want him to tell anyone and so I got really annoyed because I never trusted him but also he broke the trust that he didn’t have if that makes sense and then after arguing and blah blah blah he threatened suicide if I break up with him leaving me in a position where I don’t want to be with him but also too afraid to break up with him

Everything is just spiralling and I hate it, I relapsed with my sh last night (safe) I don’t want to go college today yet I do because I don’t want to be alone but idk