Feeling alone even when I’m not

Lucy_21

I don’t know what is going on lately, maybe a depression episode or what but no matter how many people I’m with I feel alone. I love taking to my friend at night but they are the only person that I don’t feel alone with. I just feel like crying all the time for the past few days and I mean like almost every minute I want to cry because I don’t feel me anymore. I don’t even know what me feels like. My family don’t have a clue how bad I feel all the time ither that or they aren’t bothered. I’m just stuck and need to feel like I exist again because at the moment the only time I feel like I do is with them. I love them for that but they have their own life and I shouldn’t depend on them all the time especially when they have so much to deal with. I lost my personality in high school but it’s starting to really eat at me

sinead276

Hi @Lucy_21

i'm sorry to hear you feel alone at the moment, it sounds like you're going through a really tough time. I know how isolating it can be, especially when we feel like we are starting to lose ourselves in the process, and don't feel we can express it to the people around us.

is there anything perhaps you could do in your local area that may enable you to potentially meet new people if that is something you could be interested in? it may be a way to find people with similar interests to you and form new connections. Or perhaps even hobbies you enjoy can begin solo, to help you reconnect with yourself as you said you feel you lost your personality a bit and then over time start to connect with others.

all of us on the mix are here for you and we never want you to feel likely you're alone - you can always come on here for a chat with people.

sending you hugs,
Sinead

Lucy_21

@Sinead276 My mom was supposed to look into it for me (she’s my carer) but hasn’t and thank you ❤️

kaii

Hey @Lucy_21,

Thank you so much for reaching out, I'm so sorry that you're going through such a difficult time - I just wanted to say that I relate with what you're going through, I've also been feeling alone these days even when I'm around my current friends in uni - my closest friends graduated last year, and my best friend is in America, so I really miss them a lot. I understand how loneliness can really take a toll on our mental health.

I just wanted to echo what @sinead276 said above, their suggestions are really helpful - making new connections can help us feel like we belong - I'm also planning to join some uni societies just so I can meet people. If you're planning to try these out, take it one step at a time - it's a huge thing forming new connections and joining clubs/events to meet new people with the same interests as you.

And as always the community is here to listen to you, so please feel free to chat here on the discussion boards about anything you like

Sending you lots of hugs

MatchaMia

Hi @Lucy_21, thank you for sharing with us, feeling isolated and lonely can be such a vulnerable feeling and I know so many others have gone through / are going through the same feelings as you. It's easy to feel as though you're not familiar with yourself anymore especially when we go through life circumstances that demand change, and personal growth.

I think that it's important to remember that even though it can feel as though you're stuck, this feeling is within your control and you have the power to make it shift, even when you feel powerless. An example would just be trying out new hobbies and seeing what gives you joy. Sometimes we need to have a period of being alone to figure out who we are, and that journey looks very different on every body. I think you can give yourself some grace and love because it takes time to regain / re-discover yourself. Perhaps journalling will help to recall the things that made you happy, and to brainstorm things that you've always wanted to try - maybe its not that you've lost parts of you but that you're transitioning into gaining new parts of yourself you haven't discovered yet. Once you're more confident on who you are it becomes easier to make friends, believe me And making the right friends can help with feeling less lonely, this all just takes time, and putting yourself out there, but I believe that you are strong enough and can do it

I also wanna say that I understand we can sometimes feel like a burden when we rely on others, but having people to lean on is so special and its 100% okay to do that, especially with people who know you and can maybe remind you that you aren't alone. Please know that this community is always here for you x