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Want to die

spacedogspacedog Posts: 1,192 Wise Owl
in Health & Wellbeing
I don't really know what to say I kinda just want to die - I dont even know why im safe tho

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  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 135 The Mix Convert
    Has something happened specifically that might have made you feel this way lately?
  • eylaheylah Posts: 4,412 Community Veteran
    are you safe? <3
    keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
  • AoifeAoife Community Manager Posts: 3,228 Boards Guru
    edited September 27
    We're all here for you @spacedog <3

    I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this way right now. I can really hear how overwhelming life is feeling right now and how hard it's feeling to find the words to talk through how you're feeling too. Reaching out like you did here is already a brave step and you're not alone in this. I want you to always remember that there’s hope things can get better and won't always feel so painful even if it feels far away right now. It's reassuring to hear you're safe at the moment because we all care about you so much.

    @Lucy_21 has asked a really important question. If you're comfy, do let us know how things have been going for you and if anything has made these feelings stronger. This is such a safe place and we all want to listen and support you as much as we can.

    You might already be familiar with these services, but just in case, I wanted to share them again so you've got them here whenever you need them or begin to feel unsafe. There's some incredibly kind and supportive people who will always be there for you any time of day or night, whenever you need someone to talk to.
    * Local urgent mental health helpline | Open 24/7 | Find details about your local service here.
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    *Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org

    Keep going @spacedog, we're here for you :star:
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
  • independent_independent_ Community Champion Posts: 9,014 Supreme Poster
    Hey man, how are you feeling this morning?
    “Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
  • spacedogspacedog Posts: 1,192 Wise Owl
    @Lucy_21 I just cant stop thinking about the fact my psychiatrist still is sure it's a psychotic illness but the early psychosis team keeps refusing the referrals put in and I was also denied counselling because it's "too intense" i dont know what I'm doing wrong - even in hospital the psychiatrist was kinda conflicted about the idea that I was denied support from the early psychosis team - the only thing we can do is just try different medications but alot of them just make me worse and I dont want to risk it again or just end up in hospital again
  • spacedogspacedog Posts: 1,192 Wise Owl
    @eylah yeah
  • spacedogspacedog Posts: 1,192 Wise Owl
    @independent_ kinda just worse than I was last night lol
  • AoifeAoife Community Manager Posts: 3,228 Boards Guru
    Sending lots of hugs your way @spacedog. It sounds like you're going through so much right now with the early psychosis team and counselling refusing referrals. Please know you're not doing anything wrong at all, and I'm really sorry you've been left without support or the medications are making you feel worse. No one should ever be made to feel this way and I'm so sorry you're going through this. We'll make sure to drop you a message from The Mix account to check in a bit more with you <3
    Maybe somethings don't get better, but we do. We get stronger. We learn to live with our situations as messy and ugly as they are. We fix what we can and we adapt to what we can't. Maybe some of us will never fully be okay, but at least we're here. We're still trying. We're doing the best we can. That's worth celebrating too ❤
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 135 The Mix Convert
    I’m so sorry you have been refused help like this. I’ve said it before and will again the medical care system is a mess and innocent people like you suffer from it and I’m so sorry but we are all here to support you in anyway possible
  • spacedogspacedog Posts: 1,192 Wise Owl
    @Lucy_21 I dont get it it just doesn't seem fair - the only advice I got other than medication which I dont think will have an impact was to go to uni and keep myself busy - it's not going to make a difference what I do with my life - my psychiatrist is nice but he can't really do much other than offer medication which I dont really want
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 135 The Mix Convert
    @spacedog That’s because you’re right it isn’t fair. Care now is so generic and impersonal. They just put all cases together instead of working with them as individuals it’s wrong. While I agree keeping busy helps it should not be the answer to all health like it is. They don’t understand what works for one might not for you meaning it doesn’t help
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