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Glad you find it funny. Tw attempt, swearing

Chloe234Chloe234 Community Champion Posts: 3,507 Community Veteran
edited September 22 in Health & Wellbeing
Before this is read I am safe. Its about my sister joking about my attempt from February and it's just made me frustrated. This is what I wish I could say to her.

I'm glad you get a fucking laugh out of it.
I'm glad you find it funny.
I'm glad you get joy over the fact I tried to end it.
You don't get what it was like for me.
You don't get how it feels waking up some days wishing I hadn't.
You don't get how hard it is to get through a day.
But atleast you can joke about it right?
But atleast you can remind me of it so fucking much.
But atleast you don't have to go through the pain I have to go through.

You don't get what it's like.
You sit over there all smug after your jokes.
Its petty
It's childish
It's insensitive
But it's okay it's not about you.
I'm always in the wrong yet it's okay for you to always joke about attempting being "my thing"
You don't have to fucking sit there with the pain.

So wipe that smile off your face
You're not cool.
You're sick.
You shouldn't joke about something so real just because you didn't live it.
You're my fucking sister.
You're my sister.

You don't ger what it's like.
You should be there for me.
Not there to make fun of me.
I'm glad you find it funny.
🦆💜🦆💜🦆

Comments

  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 132 The Mix Convert
    I say this out of love for you hun and I know she's your sister but what is her problem. THAT IS NOT A JOKE and I'm so sorry someone who is meant to support and love you can make fun out of a time you were in so much pain you tried to end it in that way. You should say this to her with as much energy and emotion possible, maybe even record it so that if her reaction is positive great if not you have proof for your family and if they still take her side maybe it's time to find out who you need in your life or don't. I'm wishing you so much love and support💖
  • Chloe234Chloe234 Community Champion Posts: 3,507 Community Veteran
    Thankyou so so much @Lucy_21 <3 I appreciate it a lot.

    Unfortunately in the household I live in I wouldn't be able to say it directly to my sister as it'd stir up a lot and it wouldn't end well at all. It just hurts she feels it's okay to joke about it. She called me attention seeking ages ago for it and now she keeps making sly little jokes and it's doing my head in. I just wish I could get away from her but I can't because I live with her.
    🦆💜🦆💜🦆
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 132 The Mix Convert
    You are so welcome hon and I'm so sorry you're situation is complicated but if all else just know you have us and we understand how hard this is for you. We know it's not a joke. I'm glad your attempt didn't work because you are too beautiful a soul to lose. I don't know your whole situation but I do prey it improves soon because you deserve so much better. You are strong, you matter, you're life matters and your voice and struggles are heard and matter to us. Stay strong you've got this💖
  • Chloe234Chloe234 Community Champion Posts: 3,507 Community Veteran
    Thankyou so so much @Lucy_21 <3 you're so sweet
    🦆💜🦆💜🦆
  • Lucy_21Lucy_21 Posts: 132 The Mix Convert
    You're welcome hon and thank you I'm just trying to help people the way no one helped me in school. I know what alone feels like and so want to make sure as little people as possible feel like that anymore. Please don't hesitate to PM me any time if you ever need a chat, advice or just someone to listen alright.
  • amy02amy02 Moderator Posts: 330 The Mix Regular
    Thank you for sharing these words with us @Chloe234 <3
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