Im just tired.

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Orchid059

Hi @Chloe234 I'd just like to remind you that you are doing so well. We're so proud of you! I can understand how stressful starting at college can be- you're allowed to feel anxious because change is scary. It sounds like you're worried about adjusting to a routine again and while it may take a few days to adapt, I am sure you will get into the swing of things again. I would suggest start going to bed earlier a few days prior and start waking up slightly earlier so that it's less of a shock to wake up so early again!

As for masking yourself to fit in, I would advise against this because by being your authentic self you will always find your people. It can feel daunting meeting new people but after the first few days, I am sure you will start getting to know your peers. I would also make the college aware of the extent of your anxiety so they can put in place the correct contingency plans for you to make you feel supported.

Keep us updated with how you get on- we are always here for a chat

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AnonymousToe

Chloe234 wrote: »

I also feel like personality wise im just not what i should be and things like my silly obsession for ducks needs to be different too.

aww don’t say that, there’s nothing wrong with it!

You’re important too and you deserve support 🫂

Gemma

Chloe234 wrote: »

Don't know how I'm gonna do this.

Relapsed with my self harm. I'm safe tho. Js disapointed. I ruined 26 days of being clean. Want to force myself to be okay tjo. Feel like if I'm unable to give support them I shouldn't say anything. That includes reaching out for myself.

Just echoing what Toe has shared above, you're so important too Chloe and you matter to us. Can I ask if anything triggered these urges?

It sounds like you've got so much on your plate at the moment. Starting college is a big change, and it's understandable that you're feeling anxious about it. The long days and early mornings would be tough for anyone, especially when you're already feeling so drained.

It must be really hard to feel like you have to mask who you are. I just want to say that there's nothing wrong with who you are (including your love for ducks which I absolutely love!) or anything else that makes you you.

How are you feeling about starting college beyond the anxiety? Is there anything in particular that you’re looking forward to, or maybe something that you’re worried about that we can talk through?

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Gemma

Hey @Chloe234, that makes sense and you're doing well to share this with us. You can certainly reach out for support even though you're unable to give it yourself. Here in the community we support each other, and that means there might be times where we're reaching out for support ourselves when things are tough, and other times when we feel better able to support others. You deserve space to meet your own needs.

I'm glad to hear you are feeling some excitement about starting college and doing something you love! What is it you'll be studying again? I know you want to be a teacher so is it related to that?

It's okay to be struggling with your mental health right now. That doesn't determine how trustworthy you are or will be in the future. It's okay not to be okay and you're doing so well to get support for yourself. I also actually think having some lived experience of the low points that life can bring us, oftentimes makes us more connected to other people going through something similar, and so thinking about your future in teaching, I can see you being such a wonderful, empathetic person who looks out for everyone.

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