Alien

IsThisJustFantasy

I'm always the odd one out no matter what I do. It makes me think there's something wrong with me and it upsets me. Coming back from my holiday made me realise that even more. Everyone's always watching me in public and I'm not treated like how every other normal person is treated. I'm the weird one if I do the things that other normal people do. What's the point of doing anything if I'm not treated like a normal person? I'll still be the odd one out. I think it's because of my appearance, since it's the first thing people see. I've heard people say 'who is that?' and 'who is she?' in a negative way, and I think my appearance was the reason they said that. There's no such thing like dressing, looking, talking, or walking weird etc, but if there's nothing wrong with me, I don't get why everyone watches me as if I'm an alien, or why I'm not treated like other normal people. This happens all the time. I'm used to it, but it hurts my feelings and I'm feeling hurt right now. I'll end it here. Thank u for reading this, I appreciate it.

eylah

idk what to say but im here for you and you matter.

Orchid059

Hi @IsThisJustFantasy I am sorry to hear that you feel this way I can imagine it must be debilitating feeling these thoughts. You deserve to be comfortable in your own skin without worries of judgement from others. Has there been a specific situation that has brought these thoughts on? Sometimes we feel as if people are looking at us for the wrong reasons but in actual fact, they might be thinking the opposite. Is there anyone close to you that you feel like you can trust to confide in? Or perhaps talking to a mental health professional might ease your worries. You are not alone in this and we are here to listen to you.

Let us know how you get on

IsThisJustFantasy

Thanks guys. @Orchid059 I was at the airport and I was watched my many people. I could tell it wasn't good. Children tend to observe me closely and I can tell they're thinking something negative. I've been talking to a mental health professional who thinks I should try CBT. If I go for it I'd definitely bring up my struggles.

sinead276

just wanted to say pretty much the same that Orchid did - you deserve to feel happy and confident in who you are and how you act, and not feel like you're being judged for essentially being you!!

I'd say if you do try something like CBT or other forms of help/support, it would definitely be a good idea to talk about how you feel in regards to this - they'd probably be able to offer you ways of almost addressing these thoughts so you can become more confident in yourself etc.

But remember you are amazing and awesome and has challenging as the mindset may be in a world where everyone wants to be 'normal', it can be good to be different - its what makes you you.

Hope you're feeling okay this morning and sending you a big hug
Sinead

IsThisJustFantasy

I needed to hear that @sinead276, thank u ❤️

Orchid059

Just wanted to check in with you @IsThisJustFantasy. How are you getting on?

IsThisJustFantasy

It's still hard to cope with feeling self-conscious and the worries about being judged in social situations are still there. I saw the professional that I've been seeing yesterday. He suggested other sources to use in response to my concerns about therapy clashing with uni which I'm open to. My GP put me on Sertraline when I spoke to him last week. It's a new thing for me but I hope it can help. I'm thankful that there's many things I can do to manage my anxiety.