Nervous all the time but for no reason at all / habit I formed

Amy22

I thought I would put this in the neurodiversity thread as I think this is to do with my adhd and a habit i've formed.I don't know why but I feel nervous all the time even though there is no reason to be anxious or nervous. I feel like my ADHD is playing tricks on me right now and telling me things that aren't there. I have also been super jumpy recently and I feel like jumping just at shadows has become a bit of a habit for me right now. Why do I feel like anything could pop out at me all the time scaring me?. Like im scared of the dark anyways but now even in the daytime I still feel super jumpy and I jump for no reason at all. I have been trying to distract myself by reading and watching Youtube but nothing seems to work. Normally how I deal with my anxiety is that I watch a lot of meditation videos then I fall asleep. Im just worried im having a relapse of the days when I felt dread all the time because of past mistakes. I think another reason why I may be like this and my ADHD is playing tricks is because at the moment I am not working so I've been finding it hard to keep myself occupied and my brain starts to take over and says that things are there sometimes when they aren't and for a fact I know that too. It feels more physical than mental I guess though I do have a very high imagination that can come to life sometimes. The dread feels all around me and even in doorways or places that are dark. I am sorry for posting this because I am properly being very stupid and silly thinking like this and I am wasting all of your time too by writing this down. Its probably just a stupid habit I have developed because I have nothing better to do with my life

Orchid059

Hi @Amy22 it is not stupid to say how you feel, so never let that be a worry because no one here will judge you. And you're definitely not wasting anybody's time because we are all part of this community because we care and want to listen and support eachother.

I can understand how overwhelming this might all feel right now but it sounds like you are very self-aware and taking steps to manage how you're feeling which is amazing.

It sounds to me like this might be some anxiety playing up which probably isn't helped by your ADHD. Have you considered talking to a mental health professional about how you are currently feeling as they might best be able to support you, and set up a plan to ease your worries slightly.

Keep reaching out and updating us with how you are getting on

Amy22

Thank you @Orchid059 I might be having a doctors review soon its for a medication review. I think this was just a silly episode of mine and a habit I have formed. I just need to find a way of reducing this habit of being scared of shadows.

Orchid059

It is good to hear you have a doctors appointment soon for a medication review. It's probably best to wait and see what they say first and work from there. How you are feeling is not silly so try not to degrade how you feel. It will get easier and this anxiety will pass.

Have you got anyone close to you that you trust to open up to about this?

Amy22

Thank you @Orchid059 I think I was having a bit of a moment to myself then . I might think about it actually. I have got my parents and I find it helpful chatting to them about my feelings. I talked to my mum and she was very supportive and said that if I feel worse then I can go back to the doctor's.

AnonymousToe

Hi @Amy22 you don’t need to apologise and you’re not wasting anyone’s time
I can relate to feeling more anxious when I’m not busy with other things (like in the school holidays my thoughts just get out of control). Was there like a specific trigger you noticed for this? Like for example if something happened a couple of weeks ago that bothered you or something. Maybe you could try documenting when you’re feeling like this so you can try and see what’s causing it. I’m glad you’ve been able to talk to your mum about things

Amy22

Thank you so much @AnonymousToe I really appreciate it

eylah

ik you got replied to but. your not wasting anyone’s time. you matter a lot. amy. your definitely not wasting my time. remember. your a angel. .

Amy22

Thank you so much @eylah That's really kind of you to say (had to correct the spelling then xd) and very sweet too. I just often find it hard to ask for help sometimes because I find it easier to help others more than asking for help. It's been getting a bit better slightly this habit of me jumping all the time. I did jump today but it's not as bad. I'm trying to distract myself as much as I can.

Orchid059

Amy22 wrote: »

Thank you @Orchid059 I think I was having a bit of a moment to myself then . I might think about it actually. I have got my parents and I find it helpful chatting to them about my feelings. I talked to my mum and she was very supportive and said that if I feel worse then I can go back to the doctor's.

I am glad to hear that your mum is so supportive because it makes opening up so much more comforting. Keep us updated with how you are getting on!

Amy22

Aww thanks @Orchid059

Orchid059

Hey @Amy22 wanted to check in with you and see how you were feeling. Any news with the medical review?

Amy22

Hiya @Orchid059 Im doing much better now, I still have my moments I will say. I haven't had an appointment yet because I have been busy doing job searches and stuff at the moment.

Orchid059

I am glad to hear that @Amy22 you are doing so well! It is normal to have wobbles but it sounds like you're on the right track with everything.

Amy22 wrote: »

Hiya @Orchid059 I haven't had an appointment yet because I have been busy doing job searches and stuff at the moment.

That's completely understandable. I hope the job search is going well- let us know how you get on!

Amy22

Aww thank you so much @Orchid059 I really appreciate your support right now .