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Trauma - trigger warning abuse
BensonE
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A mod asked if I would be comfortable sharing my trauma and this is something I previously shared so I'm happy to share again
So when I was younger I was taken into care twice I only remember the second time. When I was taken into care the second time I was placed with 3 different Foster families. 2 of them was Foster families and 1 was emergency Foster parents (I was placed there between the other 2)
My first Foster family use to locked me in a room for hours on end by myself with zero toys or any entertainment I must of only been 2 or 3 years old at the time and from it I developed a irrational fear of people shutting doors on exit of rooms and being stuck in rooms (sticky doors etc.) For years I never knew why, I even had night terrors and then one day I came across the truth and social services got my therapy because I was struggling soo much. My therapist told me my issues wasn't caused by my trauma and that my trauma did nothing to effect my mental health and it was all todo with the fact I was raided by my grandparents (I left 3rd Foster family because my grandparents got custody) for those of you whom know psychology know my therapist had a massive freud view on my issues
I also have adulthood trauma but it's less soo distressing and caused little harm but will share at some later point
So when I was younger I was taken into care twice I only remember the second time. When I was taken into care the second time I was placed with 3 different Foster families. 2 of them was Foster families and 1 was emergency Foster parents (I was placed there between the other 2)
My first Foster family use to locked me in a room for hours on end by myself with zero toys or any entertainment I must of only been 2 or 3 years old at the time and from it I developed a irrational fear of people shutting doors on exit of rooms and being stuck in rooms (sticky doors etc.) For years I never knew why, I even had night terrors and then one day I came across the truth and social services got my therapy because I was struggling soo much. My therapist told me my issues wasn't caused by my trauma and that my trauma did nothing to effect my mental health and it was all todo with the fact I was raided by my grandparents (I left 3rd Foster family because my grandparents got custody) for those of you whom know psychology know my therapist had a massive freud view on my issues
I also have adulthood trauma but it's less soo distressing and caused little harm but will share at some later point
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Keep reaching out
I have I spoke to a mix counsellor last year, my mental health goes up and down
Honestly one of my adult traumas is less of a trauma and more of what if I didn't do what I did would that person still be alive, and could I of done better to support them long run and was there anyway I could of saved the friendship
My most recent experience of something similar I'm now seeing I was holding onto a dead friendship for too long it needed to die and maybe be reborn but I kept asking was it worth saving and kept getting told yes
I think this will really help people who have faced similar situations to not feel so alone. Your words are very powerful/impactful and hearing how courageous you are is so inspiring.
Well done for taking the initiate to reach out for the appropriate support. You are absolutely right that mental health goes up and down and so if you find yourself needing some additional support please don't hesitate to reach out and we can help point you in the right direction.
You've got this.
@ameliaJayne I've lived with this for soo long now it's just became part of normal life don't make it any easier but I am able to manage
It sounds so difficult what you have experienced and from what I am hearing it sounds like you are carrying a lot of guilt on your shoulders which is never a nice feeling. Remember to be kind to yourself and try not to get wrapped into too many 'what ifs' because that often leads to negative self talk/
Keep reaching out and remember you are never alone
I know orchid