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Ex Muslim: desperate loneliness

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 54 Boards Initiate
I lost my religion and, simultaneously, my identity. This was when I was younger and it triggered a chain reaction of despair and was a contributing factor to my mental health problems.
I feel like everyone is believing a lie and I feel really lonely. I can’t relate to anyone who was in my peer groups in school as the where nearly all Muslim.
I’m an atheist but I feel like I have to hide behind a mask and I can’t express myself without being superficial.
I feel like an anomaly in my family. People judge me for being sectioned and treat me as a pariah and it’s just upsetting. And I hate the fake people in my family giving me condescending advice when they don’t know my circumstances enough. Is there anyone out there who can relate? I need to talk to someone who knows what it feels like.

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  • JustVJustV Community Manager Posts: 5,579 Part of The Furniture
    It's a big thing to lose your community like that, @dyoverdx. It sounds like you need to find your (new) people - somewhere you can belong and be unapologetically you.

    I can't relate to the ostracisation you're describing, but I did grow up somewhere rural around people I never really felt connected to, and as a result I felt very lonely. It changed as I got older and I met new people, and I found my footing with who I am as a person.

    I'm curious what that process was like for you though, if you don't mind me asking. When did you start identifying as atheist, and what triggered it?

    Also, you say you hide behind a mask: does that mean people in your life don't know?

    For what it's worth, you can be whoever you want to be here. :)
    All behaviour is a need trying to be met.
    The truth resists simplicity.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 54 Boards Initiate
    JustV wrote: »

    I'm curious what that process was like for you though, if you don't mind me asking. When did you start identifying as atheist, and what triggered it?

    Also, you say you hide behind a mask: does that mean people in your life don't know?

    For what it's worth, you can be whoever you want to be here. :)

    When I was a teenager and I saw stuff online and then I started to question the idea of god. Also all the suffering in the world especially on people I love.
    And no I’m more open to people I don’t know.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 375 Listening Ear
    I am also ex-muslim and its tough, you are not alone <3
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 54 Boards Initiate
    spoon wrote: »
    I am also ex-muslim and its tough, you are not alone <3

    How do you cope with it?

    I find that females have it even more tough due to doing things they don’t really want to do such as covering up.

    I’m lucky in that sense
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 375 Listening Ear
    How do you cope with it?

    I guess I'm lucky I don't have to wear a hijab. I have to be a bit secretive around my family as I'd rather just keep things peaceful, but I have close friends who know about my identity. It does suck, because I hate lying and keeping secrets, but at least I'm being honest with myself.
  • ameliaJayneameliaJayne Deactivated Posts: 94 Budding Regular
    @dyoverdx I imagine this must be really difficult going against what your family and majority of your peers follow.

    Remember you are doing the right thing by staying true to yourself. It is so important that you remind yourself that you are worthy of your own opinion and own path in life. There is no right or wrong. Life is so beautiful because you can change, grow and find a new identity whenever you feel like it. Sending you strength and support on your new journey.

    You are always welcome here and you can be whoever you want. <3
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 10 Settling in
    @dyoverdx im also an ex muslim ur not alone and i get it it can be very tough and i can tell you know it was not easy revealing to my parents well tbh i wasnt even going to tell them but my socialworker obviously exposed this fact and they were devestated they ended up taking everything away from me and even to this day i do not have a phone to communicate normally with my frends and btw im literally 16 in 2 weeks time soo i get you its tough being in an area where u feel like u arent accepted for who u are and they start excluding u from family activities that u used to love also they can also call u a shame to the family but be aware even if they dont have ur back its not their choice its urs its ur choice if u want to be part of islam or not anyways they cant force their religion on u it says specifically in islam that they ccannot force it on u so dw ur not alone we are here as well as ur friends and remember just coz they are blood doesnt mean they are ur family and community ur family is who u choose to surround urself with on a day to day basis who u rely on to help u in a difficult situation who supports and understands u remember you will always be loved by someone in this world ❤️❤️❤️love u loads keep going
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