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So I was scrolling on tiktok and I came across a live that showed the side of a bed, viewed looking up from the floor. The covers were moving back and forth so I had some idea of what was going on but I clicked on the live to see if the comments confirmed my thought that they were masturbating (yuck sorry 😬), which they did and I clicked off of the live and scrolled. It looked like it may be a single bed (although what I saw was only a small portion of the side/underside of the bed (the person was completely out of frame)) so that made me think it might have been a child and I felt 'excited' (ew sorry agian) by the prospect of masturbating myself (pretty sure it wasn't to do with if they were a chikd or not) and then I felt bad because what if I just got excited over what is essentially pornographic content of a potential child? I deleted the app after that because I sometimes see things that make me spiral on there, an example being this inappropriate live.
I would like to clarify that I would never do anything to a child and I have no intentions to do anything bad. I'm just alarmed by my thoughts and feelings sometimes (I think I have undiagnosed OCD and 2 counsellors have agreed that it's likely). I would just like some input from people outside the situation to determine whether or not I have done anything wrong, thanks for reading.
I would like to clarify that I would never do anything to a child and I have no intentions to do anything bad. I'm just alarmed by my thoughts and feelings sometimes (I think I have undiagnosed OCD and 2 counsellors have agreed that it's likely). I would just like some input from people outside the situation to determine whether or not I have done anything wrong, thanks for reading.
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I think as long as you continue reaching out for support you should be fine. Remember brains are complex things, and what you think and feel doesn't always reflect on why you are. Hope this makes any sense.
Also deleting the app is probably a good call, social media can be pretty harmful at times.
Take lots of care! Sending hugs