Still got some emotional baggage about mistakes I have made

Amy22

Hi, sorry for wasting your time. But I don't know why but this weekend, I feel a bit down and moody. I feel like there is someone else in my body, not me. Normally I am bright but why am I down?. Maybe it's because of the emotional.baggage that is still affecting me. I know that it has been sorted but I feel like there is unfinished business. I feel like I can't forgive myself for my wrong doings and past mistakes. I am still struggling with the past.

I used to copy drawings on my art course. I felt bad about it but my tutors seemed okay with it. Also I had to re do my maths but I panicked in an online test and my mum had to help me. I also struggled with a past paper and me and my mum looked up the answers on a video on youtube. This sounds silly.but I did wrong. I came clean to my maths tutor and she told me not to worry. The thing is I made these mistakes a few years ago during the pandemic where everything was online. I hate the fact that I made these mistakes. I don't want to relapse back into overthinking. I know that my tutors told me I didn't do anything wrong but I feel something bad. I think I'm having one of my stupid episodes. Sorry if you have to read this.

spoon

ur not wasting anyones time, everyone has days where they dont feel like their usual selves ((:

it sounds like your tutors are very understanding. copying drawings is like practice and a good way to work on ur technique and sometimes knowing the answers can give you a better idea of what to do. that may be why ur tutors forgives u so easily and even say u did nothing wrong and ur lucky to have tutors that may even see it that way. ur the only one giving urself a hard time so if u can forgive urself, please try to. there is more than one way to learn from a mistake.

feeling so low can be hard but i know u can go through it okay in the end

Amy22

spoon wrote: »

ur not wasting anyones time, everyone has days where they dont feel like their usual selves ((:

it sounds like your tutors are very understanding. copying drawings is like practice and a good way to work on ur technique and sometimes knowing the answers can give you a better idea of what to do. that may be why ur tutors forgives u so easily and even say u did nothing wrong and ur lucky to have tutors that may even see it that way. ur the only one giving urself a hard time so if u can forgive urself, please try to. there is more than one way to learn from a mistake.

feeling so low can be hard but i know u can go through it okay in the end

Thank you so much @Spoon I guess I have been hard on myself a lot now and then.