Fallen in love with the concept of love rather than love itself...

Former Member

I have created this beautiful concept of love that i yearn for yet I know that I'm unready for a relationship and do not want love... I know this fantasy I have is unrealistic but ...
Please don't judge me lol.

lovemimoon

Relatable.
We fall in love with our own concepts of love than the reality of it.

I dream of settling down and having a small family but being in a relationship... It's a different ball game.

Former Member

Exactlyyy.

I mean I've never been in a relationship but I kind of have when I was young but I was really young so I don't count it.

I just... I don't like it . Gives me shivers lol ofbsisbsjjs

lovemimoon

If you don't mind me asking, what don't you like about relationships?

Former Member

@lovemimoon Hmmmm I don't mind haha but lemme think about it...

Maybe hating my parents relationship has something to do with it???

Growing up I always encouraged them to get divorced

Maybe seeing toxic relationships online and obsessively reading them like yandere growing up as a kid

When I just realised its bad but it's too late and I've already associated relationships like that

My fear and dislike to men irl

Growing up with only loving females feeling close to females only feeling comfortable with females not men

Hating I mean disliking most men in my real life

Never meeting a decent male outside of my family lol

Living in a community with stupid boys lol

I mean I'm bisexual I guess I wouldn't mind being in a relationship with a female

But there's also the fear of rejection

Been rejected a lot

Falling for a "straight" girl well she said she was the straight so I was sad

In a homophobic area so that too

Strict parents

Idea of marriage and kids

Don't really want kids

Um yeah SORRY THAT THIS IS SO LONG OMG

I don't like... touching people

Well most people but I guess I'm touchy with people I'm close to

I don't like people touching me

But with people I'm close to I guess it's okay

I like being "innocent" even tho I'm not but I just like it

I just feel like a relationship is kinda uncomfortable

I just sorry dijdishsusah

lovemimoon

No, no, no! @Zoya_Jungkook
Giiirl, write an essay if you have to!

What you've listed down are completely understandable. I'm sorry to hear that - to experience toxic relationships first-hand must have been difficult.

Former Member

@lovemimoon
Haha thank you so much you're so sweet
🥺
Aww thanks didbsjsb
Wait when did I experience-
You talking about my parents? Oh yee
I mean it's okay I guess it could be worse 😊
Cause every time my parents would fight and... it scared me
And I hated it
My family would tell me its like that in every relationship so I just linked it to every relationships
And now I don't like them dindidbsjs💕💕 thank you for your support dofjksjd

lovemimoon

To a certain extent, yes but actually no.
So... yesn't?

It's natural for couples to have an occasional argument there and then. I'm not sure the extent of your parents' fights so I do apologize in advance, but if the dynamic of their fights are causing you distress then that's a different story.

Sending lots of virtual hugs!

Former Member

Lmaoo

Yeahh noo don't apologize haha its not your fault

Help you're literally so sweet and cool thank you indispensable

Sending lots of hugs back 💕💕💕😊