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I don’t want to do this anymore

I am so so tired of being a keyworker.
I’m now trained to take peoples tests and now I do so many each week, both the ones you have to post and the 30min ones we have to do before starting work.
It’s probably selfish but I just want to stay at home, work is so much everyday. It’s not hard, there is just too much of it. Everyone seems to need me all the time for things I’m sure they can do themselves. And if I mess up a test then the vulnerable people we work with might suffer. And it would be my fault.
It’s not like I can relax at home, I don’t have my own place and am crashing with my friends parents. They are very kind but it’s hard to relax without a place to call my own.
I’m now trained to take peoples tests and now I do so many each week, both the ones you have to post and the 30min ones we have to do before starting work.
It’s probably selfish but I just want to stay at home, work is so much everyday. It’s not hard, there is just too much of it. Everyone seems to need me all the time for things I’m sure they can do themselves. And if I mess up a test then the vulnerable people we work with might suffer. And it would be my fault.
It’s not like I can relax at home, I don’t have my own place and am crashing with my friends parents. They are very kind but it’s hard to relax without a place to call my own.
"Sometimes we find ourselves stuck between choosing what is right, and what is easy."
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Have you considered talking to the people you're staying with and trying to get some time to yourself so you can properly relax? Everybody needs time to themselves sometimes and hopefully getting some time to yourself would help you feel a little less run down like you described. Please let us know if there's anything we on the boards can do to help!
Where I live I feel like I’m always avoiding them
I can only imagine what you're going through... It must be so difficult though I am positive that you are not the only one feeling this way. To a certain extent, I can relate though I feel your situation is more difficult than my own. There is a support chat on here if you would like to speak to anyone else about how you are feeling. There are also services on here to support you and my PMs are always open if you wanna talk to somebody
This isn't selfish of you at all. It seems you have been working so hard, and with the responsibility it can feel emotionally draining too. Thank you so much for all you have done so far by the way
I really hope it helped you in some way to let this off your chest. As Riley says, if there's anything we can do to help please do let us know - right here for you
Stay safe everyone