feel disconnected/uncomfortable

an0n

So, I've felt like this for a while now and I just wanted to rant about it in order to get it out. My surroundings, and everything around me constantly makes me feel uncomfortable. Trust me I know that sounds really weird. It's buildings, my room, my house, shops, paintings, everything, the way things look. The way I perceive everything. It's not just when I'm in my house, if a building looks 'unappealing' to me it really affects me and I have no idea why. I've tried to explain this to my mum, and even a school counsellor, who I could tell were confused, and didn't know what I meant. I feel like I perceive everything differently to the rest of the world. It's so frustrating, because no one understands what I'm talking about, and how can I explain to others how it feels, if I don't even understand it. It feels like I'm mentally overwhelmed by surroundings if I don't like them, and I have such a strong reaction to things. It's like everything on Earth makes me uncomfortable, and it sucks and I don't understand it. Sorry this is such a weird rant, I don't get it either. 

Past User

Hey @an0n it doesn’t sound like a weird rant to me. It sounds like you’re struggling and you’re doing the right thing by reaching out. I’m not an expert by any means but what you’re describing sounds a lot like derealisation. 

I’m sorry I really don’t have any advice. But you have nothing to be sorry about. It sounds like a really confusing and frustrating time I’m just sorry I can’t help more. But opening up here and reaching out like you have been is a good thing to do I’m just sorry I can’t give you any advice. 

I’m always here if you ever need anyone to listen. 

an0n

Thanks for the reply @SpaceOtter

I don't know much about derealisation, so I think I might research it to try and find out more, thanks so much for the reply, I appreciate it.  

Riley

That certainly sounds like a difficult thing to explain @an0n it's understandable that you'd feel frustrated trying to get other people to understand what you're dealing with. There's honestly a lot of different things that could be the cause of you feeling like this, with derealisation that SpaceOtter mentioned being one of them. It could also be something like agoraphobia or other forms of anxiety, or there might even be some underlying cause that you're unaware of.

Unfortunately I'm not a doctor so I can't say for certain what might be going on but any research you can do on how you're feeling is a great first step! You might also want to consider talking to a medical professional, whether it's your GP or a mental health specialist, but that's entirely up to you! I hope you manage to figure things out soon and can get the support you need, if there's anything we here on the boards can do to help don't hesitate to ask.

an0n

Thank you for the reply @Riley

The fact that the people I've talked to don't understand what I mean, makes it much harder to figure out the problem and how to help. I'm going to continue to research for now to try and see if I can find anything, thank you for your support I really appreciate it.