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I Just Can't Stay Strong Anymore
Dancer
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I just don't know if I can stay strong anymore and I keep on bottling everything up and not feeling able to talk to anyone. It makes me feel really isolated from everyone especially at school. People at school think that I am rude or annoying when I don't talk to them but it constantly feels like everyone is judging me especially after what I have been through in the past. It feels like the past bullying is really beginning to affect me with my confidence and trust. I just want to give up as it just feels like there is no point in even trying anymore. I'm sorry for being a burden.
On Tuesday I managed to open up to my mum a bit about how I get really panicky and it makes me heart race and my chest goes tight. Feels awful for me and I just don't know who to talk to. My mum contacted my student support officer about it after what I told her and my student support officer is going to try and contact staff at school as I have been showing signs of anxiety to see if there is anyone who has been through anxiety who can help me with coping mechanisms. Not sure if I can be honest with anyone though. I don't know what will happen though.
If I am too honest then my parents might want to find out the complete truth and I don't want them to know that I use The Mix as it feels like it is supposed to be my safe space. But if I keep on bottling it up then I might begin to feel suicidal and that is really distressing me for me. I know that I need support but I just don't know what to do. Not sure if I can honestly fully open up to my family or my student support officer. Some of my teachers have noticed that I have really not been myself but I don't feel able to talk about why.
I'm just so sorry. 😭
On Tuesday I managed to open up to my mum a bit about how I get really panicky and it makes me heart race and my chest goes tight. Feels awful for me and I just don't know who to talk to. My mum contacted my student support officer about it after what I told her and my student support officer is going to try and contact staff at school as I have been showing signs of anxiety to see if there is anyone who has been through anxiety who can help me with coping mechanisms. Not sure if I can be honest with anyone though. I don't know what will happen though.
If I am too honest then my parents might want to find out the complete truth and I don't want them to know that I use The Mix as it feels like it is supposed to be my safe space. But if I keep on bottling it up then I might begin to feel suicidal and that is really distressing me for me. I know that I need support but I just don't know what to do. Not sure if I can honestly fully open up to my family or my student support officer. Some of my teachers have noticed that I have really not been myself but I don't feel able to talk about why.
I'm just so sorry. 😭
"There's a part of me I can't get back. A little girl grew up too fast. All it took was once. I'll never be the same." ~ Demi Lovato
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
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"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
I’m incredibly proud of you for opening up. I know how tough that must have been. And I really hope it means that now you’ll get the help and support you deserve. Because kasa you deserve support and someone to listen to you. You deserve the world. All your feelings are valid and you’re always welcome here, we will always listen.
I understand how scary everything must be right now. Maybe you could write out the bits you want to tell your parents. And I know opening up is tough so take it at a speed you’re comfortable with. We’re always here kasa.
You have nothing to apologise for. I just wish I could do more. You’re a phenomenal individual and I’m so blessed to know you.
(I’m sorry I can’t help more and sorry if this came across rude)
-You’re incredible at helping others and you always make me smile
-Eventhough it’s really hard you continue to open up and fight through the dark days.
-You're so strong and brave kasa I truly admire you.
-You have an amazing taste in music and always introduce me to inspirational songs.
-Your posts are always so uplifting and often make my day.
Sometimes when our thoughts get too much it can be difficult to do even simple tasks. Sometimes it’s about doing what we can, drinking lots of water or just washing our face.
Posting here like you have was an amazing and strong thing to do. We’re always here for you Kasa.
Honestly, I am new here and I read what SpaceOtter said that you made someone's day and I saw your posts that are fun and some of them are positive yet encouraging at the same time, and I'm happy for you.
I just want to let you know that, you are still strong until now. Some days can be feel miserable and not strong enough sometimes, but you do, you're strong even you don't feel like it! Don't forget to take care of yourself, even with simple small tasks are enough for you.
"The way that I have found the light in my life is through the expressive arts because I know that I will be accepted for the way I am." ~ Me
"I'm going to get strong again and see you soon. " ~ Anonymous
Everybody has their own battle and struggles we can’t see, it’s hard to open up to people about them but I promise you have nothing to be ashamed of.
We’re all proud of you kasa
Contacting a crisis line can be scary but at the times when I’ve been at my lowest they have given me incredible support and have helped me feel like I wasn’t alone. But it’s perfectly ok if you don’t feel comfortable contacting them, I’m always here if you need someone to talk to
Just wanted to pop on to send you some hugs and let you know that we really care about you and we are here if you want to talk
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